Hey President, I Love You.

06

Chapter 6: Alcohol

i turn around and see Ellias wear white button down polo and a trousers (nasa taas yung suot niya)

"Ellias" i called

"do you want to dance?" he asked

crush ano to? anong kasunod nito?

"sure"

as soon as we make it to the dance floor he softly put my hands to his shoulder and he gently put his hands on my waist.

The song change its more calming and sweet, really made for couples.

"are you happy?" i asked

"why?"

"i just want to know, kung masaya ka ba sa ginagawa mo o kung ayos ka lang"

"i'm okay as long as your with me"

my eyes widened, did he really mean it? as long as i'm with him he's okay?

"joke lang yon e" i said then laugh ng super fake

bigla akong bumitaw at nagpaalam na iinom ng juice, pagkasalin ko ng juice parang ibang lasa pero masarap.

after an hour of drinking the juice i find myself out of control, ngangarag ngarag akong naglakad habang hinahanap si ellias.

when i find him, i walk towards him.

"bakit ganyan maglakad si andrea?" narinig kong sabi ng kasama niya

Agad niya akong nilapitan at inalalayan, i smile how gentle he holds me.

"President! there you are!"

"what the fuck happened to you?!"

"why do i find you attractive when you curse, you look hot President" parang walang hiyang sabi ko

"Tangina" he cursed while massaging the bridge of his nose

with no hesitation i stand straight and face him  even if he's so tall i'm just in his ears even i'm wearing heels, he look to me with frustration.

"i find you hot, Ellias" i said

the seconds later i kissed him.

with no frustration and no control.

"Andreannah Kirsten, stop." he eagerly said

"why? am i not attractive? am i not hot? am i ugly?" shed of tears is slowly falling from my eyes

"is this about lia? did you really have something?"

"Andrean—"

"i knew it" tumatawang sabi ko "i knew it, you love her."

"andrea stop i—"

"if you love her what am i to you?!" then i burst in tears "bakit pakiramdam ko gusto mo ko? bakit parang nagbibigay kang motibo?"

he hold my hand but i held it back.

"ansakit ellias, i thought i was your bebita? that means baby girl right? tangina, ang tanga ko" i said then laugh i walk towards the juice at lumaklak ako ng napakarami

"to someone who put alcohol to the juice THANK YOU BITCH!" i shouted then walk away

Naglalakad nako palabas ng school bitbit ko yung heels ko nakayapak lang ako ngayon, frustration hits me.

why did i even do that? am i really out of myself?

Palagpas nako ng gate ng biglang may humila sakin, i'm about to punch him when i realize who was it.

"Andreahnna, let me explain" ellias said

"save your saliva no explanations to do, wala kang obligasiyon na mgexplain kasi wala lang yun sayo and at last let me leave"

"but andreah—" i cut him off

"Tangina Ellias! cut the chase! i'm already hurting don't hurt me more!" then i started crying

"do you know the feeling that someone just don't love you back? but that's life something the people that we love don't love us back, alam ko na yun e! masakit na e! sobra! i freaking hate it if you gonna pity me so let me go" i said then he finally let go of me

"am i that easy to let go or discarted? hindi ka man lang nagpumilit? tangina!" sigaw ko at napaupo nalang at napaiyak habang tinatakpan ang mukha

i feel him sat down too, he remove my hand and held my face look at me like i am the only one.

"don't make me feel this way ellias, it hurt me more"

pero bis na bitawan ang kamay ko itinayo niya ko, at pinahiran ang luha ko.

"don't cry" he said "you don't know everything so don't assume".

"is that an insult?" i asked eagerly

"ihahatid na kita sa inyo" sabi niya at naglabas ng panyo pinapahiran ang kumalat na eyeliner

"kaya ko sarili ko" sabi ko

"wag nang matigas ang ulo, hindi rin ako mapipirmi pa umuwi ka magisa" aniya tyka pinatunog ang kotse

Namuhay ang katahimikan sa kotse niya habang nagdadrive siya, pagkadating na pagkadating samin.

Hinang hina akong bumaba ng kotse niya at ngdirediretso papasok, ni isang tingin o silip hindi ko ginawa dahil kumikirot yung puso ko tuwing titignan ko siya.

pagpasok ko sa kwarto ko agad akong humiga at umiyak na parang bata.

"Lala! ansakit sakit!" hagulgul ko

Lilipas rin ang sakit na nararamdaman ko.

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