POV: yours
I was laying on the roof top of the schools dormitory, just staring at the only two stars at the sky, and the big moon
"Y/N!" Adora said out of breathe running up from the stairs, I slowly sat up and stared at her blankly, "Hey" I said "Sorry Im late." She said sitting down in front of me.
I nodded slowly, "it's fine" I said with a shrug.
"What's with the attitude?" She asked, I was looking at the distance, "What attitude?" I asked.
I could feel her stare still on me, I finally looked at her, "So good news" she said while beaming with pride.
"ya girl got the part" she smirked.
I chuckled, "Congrats"
"So Y/N, we have known eachother for a while, and I feel like we don't know eachother at all." I looked at the floor, "I mean what do you wanna know?" I asked.
"What happened before you came? I mean some people have mentioned bits of it. But I wanna hear it from you."
I laid down knowing this was gonna take a while.
"Well my parents d-" "no not that, like before that."
She laid down next to me, we both faced the sky.
"Well, i went to school with CATRA, since probably middle school, she was hurt because one of her best friends left her, and I just got cut off of a petty old friend group, so we both sat together alone in the table most of the time, and we got close from that, eventually people realized how amazing we are" I said sounding cocky.
Adora laughed, "so we gained more friends, we got invited to wild ass parties too. Life was great." I said.
"My parents weren't always the best, I mean we had issues here and there, but we were still you know, family." I said with a small smile.
"My favorite part of the week was when they'd let me invite CATRA over, she would sleep over, and my mom liked sitting with us And spilling tea, then my dad would come home.... life wasn't the best but like i said, it was okay" I said.
"Did you think that back then?" She asked.
"No" i replied
"I thought it sucked."
"It wasn't until it was all over, I realized the things I thought was bad was actually okay, it was the highlight of my life, I wasn't prepared for the worse that came later on." I said feeling my heart get heavy.
"I now realized to appreciate even the smallest shit in life cause nothing lasts, live the moment"
"I always wonder why me you know"
"After that I got sent to a mental hospital, tried killing myself, people found out, told others, lost a lot of friends, not catra, she was scared of losing me though. People only wanted me around when I was at my best, I found that out after months of overthinking and self hating, therapy didn't work, talking to others didn't either, It was like an empty pit of nothing, eventually I got used to that feeling of nothing, it was like an endless repeat of the same episode, I wanted out, And I tried, but it led nowhere." I said.
Adora laid there not doing anything, that was fine, I didn't want her to say anything, I just needed company.
"You know, I started feeling life again when I met you." I said, she chuckled, "I don't mean it to sound like I depend on you to like be my manic pixie girl , cause you aren't, but like, i am glad I met you." I said.
She shifted her body to face me, "Im glad." She smiled.
I sighed, "Sometimes I wish shit could go back to normal, I look at other people and wish I had the life that they had, or that they could appreciate what they have, cause at least they have someone, with me, I know people always tell me they have my back, I know people try to be there for me, but I feel like in stuck in a room with no one but myself" I said.
"Hey Y/n"
"Yeah?"
"I know you are tired of hearing this, but I am here for you, you know, I always will be. For the good for the bad, I wanna be the person that stays you know, we can sit in that lonely room you told me about and be quiet, or talk if you want,doesn't matter, I just don't want you feeling lonely anymore, cause you Arent, Im here. And I'm not leaving."
I laughed
"Im serious!" "I know I know!"
I turned to face her, "You know I love you right"
She blushed, "I wanna be with you, but not right now, I don't want you being with me while I'm like this. This isn't what you deserve." I said.
She reached out for my hand and held it, "I'll wait no matter how fucking long it'll take." She said.
"I just want you to know I'm not leaving because I wanna be with you too, when I'm with you I finally understand what it means to be in love" She said.
I slowly closed my eyes and closed the gap between our faces And kissed her softly.
She lifted her hands and held my face, kissing me back, I smiled and pulled away.
