Star Trek One Shots

You Broke me first-kirk x reader

Trigger warning: violence and extreme physical pain at the end, reader induces a miscarriage unnaturally. Please do not read if this is triggering to you

I am y/n Pike only child of infamous Christoper Pike. Not long before his retirement, I was promoted to the rank of Commander two years before hand so I was in line to take command of the Enterprise after Dad had retired as a captain of course. One thing I wanna get straight, I am not a daddies little princess that milked the system to get what I wanted, no. I worked from the ground up, I had earned a reputation of not willing to send others to there deaths if I wasn't willing to go myself. To be honest the list of bones I had only broken once was shorter than the list of ones broken three times.

I had worked hard to get where I was. Till a little thing called James T Kirk came along, though we were the same age (24) I was definitely much more mature and experienced then this fresh blood. He took everything from me, even tried to get me demoted to Lieutenant! It came as no surprise that for weeks no crew members acknowledged him as there captain, something I was grateful for. He soon found out that to win the trust of the crew he had to win mine first.

At first I resisted but Jim seemed genuinely kind and friendly, my first mistake. He had invited me for a drink saying he wished to discuss something with me. I have to admit I was hesitant but agreed. To my amazement he was willing to allow me to co-Captain with him, I have to admit I was skeptical but he talked me into it. He had a way with words and poetry, I had grown up without a mother so I had never anyone to teach me the frivolousness of makeup and fancy hairdos so I was very plain and tomboyish. I wore my dark locks in a curly one side heavy bob all the time as it was very low maintenance.

Jim made me feel special, he brought warmth into my stone cold heart, he showed me a feeling no one had shown to me before. Love. Passionate love.

That one drink turned into a few dates here and there, before finally the two of us becoming a sort of couple. The crew was definitely more at ease around him now and I would say I trusted if not loved him. At someone's birthday party (I always forget there name) we danced the night away till we left the party early. Why was unclear in my innocent mind. To my shock when the door to his quarters shut he pulled me closer and started to kiss me. I was hesitant and told him of this but he took slow and stopped to make sure I was alright with it every now and again. That was the first time I had ever experienced physical love. So caught up in our moment we forgot about protection. Big mistake.

I sat on my own a couple weeks later a positive pregnancy test in hand. How was I going to face Jim and the others. I had let my guard down so much that this happened. We had earth shore leave the next week, great I could slip away and clear my mind that way. Who knew clearing my mind was an attempted suicide by drowning in the ships holo deck. The last thing I saw before blacking out was someone jumping in after me. "Come on y/n don't die on me!" I heard Jim yell, moments later I rolled onto my front and spat out the water, "What in gods green earth were you thinking?" "I was just walking around and, and I slipped I can't swim," that was a lie. "God just be more careful your dad would kill me if anything happened to you," I was about to say something but what I don't know.

Thinking things through was the best thing that ever happened over shore leave. I went to my cousin who is a couple years older than me for help. I told her my story and she was just as mad as hurt that I didn't come to her sooner. She recommended me someone who could give me something to, well, induce a miscarriage so to speak. I was a little flabbergasted by her suggestion but I happily took it so I could pretend this whole thing never happened. My second mistake. I followed the instructions with the pill given exactly. It was all going according to plan, but my stupid self took it the day before we left on the Enterprise again.