Why do I find myself alone in the night,
Thinking of how I'm too tired to fight?
Why can I barely raise my own head,
Why do my arms and legs feel like lead?
Why am I weary of eating my food,
Why am I dreary no matter my mood?
Why do these fun times quickly fade away,
Why can't I feel the joy from yesterday?
Why am I angry when I'm talking to you,
Why am I worried that you'll be mad too?
What has this come to, how'd it end up this way,
It's warm mid-july yet the sky still looks gray.
My world just keeps spinning right out of control,
I want to take charge but I can't pay the toll.
I'm distracted, alone, I don't know what to say,
I'm sick and frustrated each and every single day.
I shut everyone out, I'm a disaster at best,
I can't even explain what I feel in my chest.
I'm not trying to hurt you, just hear me out please,
I want to walk with you but I'm weak in the knees.
Why can't I hold on to the laughter and smiles,
Why do I always feel like I've walked a few miles?
I can't handle how everything is going so fast,
Maybe this is why good things never last.
