You're standing right here but I can't speak
I try but it's hard to move my feet
You patiently wait, with concerned eyes
And I want to force out all of the lies
"Are you okay?" and the silence breaks at last
I look down for a second, barely a glance
The words hang in the air, quiet and still
The space is empty, impossible to fill
My mouth reopens, another attempt
And now I just seem incompetent
You reach out towards me, cautiously slow
In your arms I collapse, and you tell me you know
"I understand, and I'll be here for you,
I promise, we'll always have room for two."
A gracious nod, and a loving squeeze
And we stand together as long as I please
But I still can't tell you just what is wrong
Painful and sad, a story far too long
I want to talk, I want to spill now
The only thing is, I'll never know how
It's frustrating, but I can't trust again
I need to speak out but I only hold in
Give me some time, give me support
I'm trying so hard, please don't abort
We finally separate, and you stand me up straight
You take a step back, your hand on the gate
"Whatever you need, give me a call...
Are you okay?" And my gaze on you falls
"I'm fine, I love you, I'll talk to you soon."
And you disappear under the light of the moon
I sigh, drop down, and hold my head in my hands
I've failed again to meet the demands
Believe me, I need you, but I'm not ready yet
These stories, they haunt me, soon as the sun sets
I push away the memories, the horrid replays
But they just don't ignore me on the worst days
Hold on to me, I'll hold on to you
Maybe one day we'll start again new
