Someone You Love •OffGun

NINE

Third

Why do we live?

It's always that question. And people has different answers. Some might say they live to love, they live to survive, they live for the people they love.

And for Off. He still can't find an answer for that question until now.

He wasn't really supposed to be here. He wasn't supposed to be here in this world and hurting like this. He was here because of the accident his mother and his father made that night.

His mom was just 17 when she gave birth to him and 16 when she found out she's pregnant. And his life was already a mess even when he's still in her womb. His mother tried to kill him inside her womb. But she didn't succeed. And she tried to kill him again a week after she gave birth.

Her mother tried to kill him many times but she didn't succeed which Off wish she did. Until her mother decided to let him live. To let him live just to suffer. Her mother took all of her anger from his father to him. And that is something Off could never understand.

Why would you blame the child when you are the one who's at fault?

Off never see the beauty of life. He knows the word 'love' but he never really understand it. He knows the word 'genuine happiness' but he doesn't really know how it feels.

How does it feel when you are genuinely happy? How does it really feel when you are loved. The comfort of a mother. A hugged of a mother that a lot of people were saying it is magical? How does it feel coming home and you will be welcome with a smile and a warm hug from your mother? How does a love of a mother feels like? Off didn't know.

It's funny how a lot of people wanted a car, a perfect job, big house and every material things when Off only wanted to be found. He only wanted to know how that genuine happiness feels like? And how does it feel to be 'home'.

He wanted to be found but he doesn't want an attention.

Off keeps his eyes shut, doesn't want to open it as he can feel all the attention of people are on him. He doesn't like it. He doesn't like how they looked at him. The way they pity him. He doesn't like people pitying him.

He doesn't want to be called attention seeker.

Off can feel someone touched his hands. That person is holding his hand tightly.

Off decided to slowly open his eyes. He saw his friends and Gun looking at him worriedly. He sigh.

Off feels something in his stomach. It feels like he's going to throw up. Gun immediately helps him sat down and place the big bowl in front of Off as he vomit.

Gun is rubbing his back while Off is throwing up. It aches him to throw up because his stomach is empty. Tears slipped from his eyes as his face are turning red from doing it.

Gun gave him a glass of water after throwing up which he drank all of it.

He looked up and his friends are now gone. He was left with Gun. Off catches his breath.

"I'm okay, thank you" Off said when Gun continued on rubbing his back.

"Stop saying that! I am not even asking you" Gun complained. Off's eyes widened as he looked at Gun. His forehead is wrinkled.

"Gun" Off called him. Gun then looked at him. His eyes are red and puffy, tears are in the corner of his eyes.

"Stop saying you are okay because you're not. I am not asking you because I already know you are not okay and I don't want you to lie to me!" Gun almost shouted.