Someone You Love •OffGun

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Third

Off is silently watching in the living room while his friends are preparing for their works. It's a normal day. Them being busy with their lives and Off has an appointment later with his therapist.

"Are you sure you don't want to use the car?" Arm asked. Off smiled and shook his head.

Arm offered his car last night and earlier but Off still refuses.

"I'm fine" he replied.

It's not that he doesn't want to use it. Somehow, Off wanted to take a walk. For the past two weeks he kept himself locked in his room. Trying to give encouragement to himself to move forward. To do something that might help him. Even just a little.

He didn't know what to do and he felt so tired just thinking about it. Like his body is so against it that no matter how he tried to motivate himself, his body just wanted to lay down on his bed.

But when Gun texted him saying he should visit him this week, he kind of feel like going outside.

"We're going, Off" they bid their goodbye.

"Yeah. See you later" he said before he locked the door.

He immediately got inside his room and look at his phone to check the time and if Gun replied to his text. He did.

-Gun-

I'll visit you today. Maybe before lunch? What do you want to eat?

Really?
I don't know. I'm happier with the fact that you'll visit me today.
Maybe chicken is enough.
I'll wait for you!
See you later!
Be careful on your way!

Okay. See you.

Off can't stop himself from smiling by the younger's reply. He's so energetic even in texts.

He stayed laying on his bed feeling somehow strange by the excitement he's feeling right at this moment.

He placed his hand on the top of his chest to feel his heart beat.

Starting over or moving forward is something that Off always wanted to do ever since. That's why he decided to live on his own before, making a decision of leaving his parents who doesn't even care if he live or not.

He tried. He tried harder than anybody think. Because of all people, he wanted to experience happiness without the past hunting him.

He tried many times but someone kept on pushing him back to the darkness. Pushing him further. Be it his Mom or other people who didn't even know his story.

He got tired trying. Why would he try when people makes him feel like he shouldn't do it.

Maybe because he don't deserve it. He don't deserve to live a normal life like everyone. Making friends, laughing without worrying about the other's opinion about him.

He have a lot of things he wanted to do, to be honest. Going on a trip, getting drunk, going on a beach with the person he love, going to work like those people on his age, being productive, sleeping at night and being excited about the next day.