Double Trouble (Louis Tomlinson)

- Chapter Twenty-Two

Chapter Twenty-Two:

I eventually came in last night after deciding whether I was making the right decisions or night, I couldn’t leave Amy; she was the love of my life. My best friend and she’s having my children. I couldn’t leave them two. I couldn’t have them growing up without a father. I wouldn’t do that to them, when my parents got a divorce it was hard. Seeing my mum so devastated and me and the girls growing up without a father, I hated seeing my mum upset.

I couldn’t have my two little ones growing up without me and seeing them have to deal with Amy because she was so upset. I couldn’t do that! I wouldn’t do that!

But I needed a break.

Well I think I needed a break. Maybe Amy and I just need to talk about this and see what the outcome is, maybe I’m jumping to conclusions… But she still could have told me.

I don’t know what to do, I love Amy so much. I couldn’t walk away from her when she needs me the most. I can’t do it. I would have mountains of guilt on my shoulders every day and I couldn’t live with myself.

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As I drove up the driveway I noticed the lights were off, everyone except the living room and hallway. As if Amy was expecting me to come home. She left the light on so I wouldn’t be in pitch blackness. She was just too caring.

I got my keys out of my pocket and put them in the front door and turned them so the door would open.

I put the keys down on the counter by the door and walked up the hallway to the living room. I could see the lamp was on. I leaned on the doorframe and looked in. There was a body there sitting but it wasn’t Amy’s. It was Lauren’s.

I walked up to Lauren, she was reading something. I couldn’t see what though.

She noticed my presence and looked up. She looked, shocked, angry and sympathetic.

“Lou. Where have you been? We’ve been worried sick about you!” She scolded me.

“I’m sorry. I needed a break for a while, get my head around things. Think something’s over you know?” I said in a soft tone. I looked at the clock, 00:10am. Lauren obviously didn’t want to leave Amy by herself and kept an eye and waited for me to come home.

“What is happening Lou. Seriously what is going on. She has been worrying about you like crazy. She has been crying nonstop, she wouldn’t eat or drink, I forced her to eat something eventually. She’s been crying in her sleep, calling your name and everything. But you weren’t there Louis. Where on earth were you? We nearly had a fucking SWAT team looking for you!” She shouted not letting me say anything at all. I was about to say something but she cut me off again.

“No, don’t say anything I have to say this on be-half of Amy and the rest of the boys. Amy won’t say this because she loves you so much!”

“What if something happened to her? Huh. What if she passed out? Went into labour? You wouldn’t have known because you had your fucking phone turned off! You don’t know how long it took for me to get her off to sleep. Everyone was out looking for you. I cannot believe you. I thought you would have had at least some decency she is about 2 weeks away from her fucking due date! I’m leaving. You’re home now and I can’t even stand to look at you. Goodbye!” She said storming out, leaving my speechless.

Lauren has never been one to have ago at people. But Christ she can.

I sat down on the sofa and picked up what she was reading. I turned a page and saw pictures.

It was mine and Amy’s wedding photos. I turned over a couple of pictures there were ones of me, Amy and my family, one with her family and then one with all of our families.