Love Between You & Me

Today is not the day

Arthit came out of study and finds Kongpob deep in thoughts, staring blankly at nothing in particluar. The news has changed to weekly broadcast of Decades' Criminal is airing out with reporter babbling about some criminal release. The officer didn't paid much heed to whatever is showcasing on the screen and clicks it shut, making the younger one jolt out of his rumination.

"Oh P'Arthit! you finished your call? who was it?", Kongpob glances up in surprise, and stands up in his place. Trying to pull off a smile to mask his real emotions but who is he fooling. The senior could see the slight dampness in his eyes, and the way corner of his mouth keeps on curving down, too stiff to form a cheerful smile. But decided to play along with his junior.

"Its mom. Just checking upon me", Kongpob nods his head, understanding.

Arthit gets that the other person is hurt because of the harsh and impulsive words said to Kongpob by his brother and feels that all had happened because of his disclosure, making him feel guilty and liable for the current state of Kongpob.

Putting both his hands in pockets of his jacket, he walks up to the later and apologises, " Sorry Kongpob, because of me...Beam...if only i had lied, things would not gotten this bad. I am sincerly sorry ......

Kongpob whose emotions are already all over the place, takes the words of his senior wrongly. He can feel his chagrin raising over Arthit's taking all the blame. His inundate brain deciphering each syllable in incorrect manner. The elder one has not done anything except speaking truth just like his brother, then why is he apologising - this question keeps on running inside his mind on a loop. Why he has to seek forgiveness to him or to any one just because he loves Kongpob? All the sentiments swirling inside Kongpob is making him more confuse, brewing a tornado inside the younger one.

"Why.....".

Kongpob cuts off Arthit in mid, making the later raise his head and meet brown orbs storming with emotions at the moment. The honey skin man approaches the elder, cutting the gap bewteen them some more, stopping a step away.

"....why?", the younger one repeats the mono syllable, making the elder all more puzzled.

" What are you talking about?"

An annoyed Kongpob looks to his right, poking inside of his cheeks with his tongue, and sighs, before fixing his eyes back to the dark ones," If you are this sorry then why exactly did you did that? That too when you don't even know my answer? Then JUST WHY ? You have known firsthand what would be P'Beam's reaction then why did you endangered your years of friendship for my sake? I just don't understand....", the younger one trails off, closing his eyes in frustration when he feels the prickling into his eyelids, a sign that he is this close to bursting out.

The elder one is perplexed at later's words. He steps forward, holding his junior with his shoulders," Kongpob, I think you are getting it wrong. I am sorry for-

"Does loving me is that burdensome?", Arthit felt like getting hit by a thunder as he hears the faint whisper full of hurt. His heart panged seeing the distressed face. Kongpob had yet to open his eyes but the elder one can imagine the chocolate pools brimming with tears. But except calling later's name, the elder one is clueless.

"Does loving me is that bothersome for you that you keep apologising for it?", the elder one is taken aback as he learns the real cause behind Kongpob's misery induced words.

The younger opens his eyes feeling the dabs on his cheeks and as Arthit has presumed, the mocha coloured orbs are all moist, ready to break dams any time. The senior can see the frustration, shame, anger, gratitude, desperation in those soulful eyes. At times like these, he realises how difficult it must have been for Kongpob while growing up. He is not blaming Beam and his family. God bless them, they are the best family his junior would had asked for but somehwere, somehow, the little one must have felt like an outsider and instead of taking all the love and affection as blessing for being a family member, he has taken it as kindness or generousity of the Vongaphin family. And in return of the beneficence done to him, he wants to make his foster family proud of him. Like they are of Beam.