Love Between You & Me

Why?

Kongpob inserted the key card into the slot, and twisted the knob, pushing the door to the side, and makes his way inside the bedroom, dragging a plastered Ryan with his arms wrapped around the shoulder in support. Dropping his drunk out of his mind senior, the young man goes back to lock the door and comes back to find the other person in the same position he has left him, with his eyes closed, soft snores coming out of his slighted parted mouth, making Kongpob sighs in exasperation.

Approaching the other person, he bends and pulls off his shoes and socks, depositing them on the floor. Climbing the bed, he takes off his tie, before he starts for later's shirt. He has managed to unbutton the first two buttons when he stops, realising his action and pulls away his hands immediately..what the hell am I doing??? Damon has just asked me to take him home. Why am I playing nurse??..mentally smacking himself, Kongpob moves away from the bed and aims straight for the door but stops at the end moment and looks over his shoulder before huffing in annoyance...why I always get stuck in these situations???..

Stomping back, he reaches Ryan who is lost to whatever is happening around him and once again goes up the bed and hauls the sleeping man in middle of the bed, before dropping beside him and pants. His breath  is uneven from lifting the man weighing twice of him. As his breaths get even, he turns to his left and scowls at his senior, responsible for his troubles. Raising himself on his elbow, resting his head in his palm, he said," how old are you?? 3?4? Throwing tantrums at this age like a toddler...", kongpob looks up at the ceiling and murmurs,"... It doesn't suit you at all"

"Then what suits me?", Ryan muttered, eyes closed. Kongpob swears he heard a snap in his neck, with how quickly he looks down at his senior ,whom he has assumed sleeping all this time, has his eyes open, staring back at him without blinking. Before he can articulate any word or decipher the emotions swirling in his senior's eyes, Ryan is tugging at his wrist, pulling him down and flipping their bodies, bringing Kongpob underneath him.

Knowing fully well the next move of the younger one, Ryan didn't spare a second and captured both of Kongpob's hand in his, pulling it over their heads, dropping all his weight over the person lying beneath him, ceasing all the escapes.

"what are you doing? Get off!", Kongpob demanded, not in mood to play any of elder's game. He already has more than enough in his plate. He don't need another one to add to the ongoing list. His rising chagrin keeping his anxiety at bay.

"No"

Kongpob's mouth falls open at the blantant refusal of the other person before anger flashes in his eyes and he yanks at the vise grip to free himself but it only made Ryan to consolidate his hold some more.

"What the fuck Ryan!!! we have already talked about it, ain't we? I was just doing my job. I admire you for your intelligence and abilities. I respect you for the person you are. I like you but in a platonic-

"why?"

Ryan didn't late the other finish and asks. He can not explain how much in pain he is. Seeing his mother today, all glowing and healthy, no sign of any pain, worry and concern for her first child, it broke that 13 years old child's heart all over once again. Decades ago, when he was told that his mother has left him purposefully and would never come for him, he didn't believed any of them. But when days changed to weeks, weeks to months, months to years and there's no news of his mother, he began to trust those harsh words. Either that or his mom has also died. It is the only plausible option for Ryan. Cause he could not understand why a mother would abandon her own child. But then one day she came and stomped all over him.

A single question keeps on circling inside him- why Arthit and not him? Why his mother chose to shower all her love and care on Arthit? If she wanted, Ryan would not had to live like an orphan all those times. He and Arthit could had been brothers instead of....whatever they are today. He could also had been friends with Prem, Bright, Phoenix, Damon and Knott. He would not had to spend his entire existence like an exile. Then just why???