Shades Of Regret 🔞 || A Kim Taehyung Fanfic

Chapter 25

"You can't have your way everytime." I whispered, gulping down my saliva as I felt his lust filled gaze on my figure.

A sigh left his mouth as he poked the inside of his cheek with his tongue and pushed his brown locks back with his fingers.

He leaned forward and his hot breath fanned against my already heated cheeks. "You don't have to try so hard princess, we both know how much of a submissive you are." He breathed out, caressing my bottom lip with his thumb.

A thought wrenched my heart as my eyes fell on the moonlight that was penetrating the glass window.

If you were the moon, I'd be jealous of the stars that they could be next to you every right. One of Namjoon's daily messages that he left in my locker every day, in college, anonymously. I didn't even realize when tears started rolling down my cheeks, falling onto Taehyung's hand.

The next moment, his hands were wiping the tears that kept streaming uncontrollably with soft whimpers.  "What happened? Did I hurt you?" He enquired with concern edged in every line of his face.

"I can't."

"I was just teasing you, ofcourse I wouldn't do anything while you're drunk and not yourself." He smiled pecking the tip of my nose. I could feel his body, that was tensed and stiffened a few second ago, loosening up.

"That's not what I am trying to say. I can't do this to Joon, not with his brother."

"And what are you trying to imply with the 'this' "?

"You know it. What we are doing here, why do I wake up in your bed every morning even though I wear Namjoon's ring? This is wrong. We have to stop this."

A sigh left his mouth and his hot breath hit my face before I felt the warmth of his hands leaving my cheeks.

"You're asking me that?" His words came out, laced with sarcasm. "Look I will just ask one simple question, if you can answer that then you're free to leave." He added geaturing towards the door. Even though he never was the type to show much emotions but I could see the clear mirror of how his heart broke this moment.

"Tae..."

"No Alani, I'm tired of this. Everytime I come close to you, I see the look in your eyes as if we're criminals." He interrupted me, his voice wasn't loud but the mixture of anger, sadness and disappointment it held, was petrifying. "Do you feel guilty cause he claimed you by putting that piece of metal around your finger or do you really love him?"

"I don't know." My voice came shakier than I expected.

Those are the questions I ask myself every second of my life but I never found the answer. I should love Namjoon, he's the one I fell in love with in highschool but why does he feel like a stranger? Why is there a sense of belonging when I am with Taehyung but not when I am with my fiance, the man I agreed to marry and spend the rest of my life with.

The way his eyes flickered with anger, I expected an outburst. And the moment he started walking towards, I knew this would end up like every argument that Namjoon and I had, I was preparing myself mentally for him to grab one of the plates or glasses and smash them against the floor and flinched the moment her held both my arms.

Confusion hooded his eyes as he read my expression. "What happened? I wouldn't hurt you, not in a thousand years. Now baby look into my eyes, I don't want you to suffer everyday by blaming yourself." He whispered with his lips pressed against my cheek. "You're the moon of my darkest nights, I don't wanna loose you. "

"Moon?"

A/N
Honestly this isn't what I was aiming to go for but I'll do my best to make the next chapter worth it.

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