Psychotic Bitch

Chapter 8

Having to stay on his property was torture. I'm stuck doing nothing all day. I can't do my everyday shit that I need to. I can't even attend my college. All of the money I spent going to waste right now.
I told them they were wrong. I told them he would find out. How could they be so stupid? How could I be so stupid? I shouldn't have let them help. I would be better off in Italy right now.
At least his backyard is pretty. I could lay here and read all day. Which I've been doing because I have no other option! What else is there to do? I fucking hate him for keeping me locked here. I just want to murder him. All I've been doing this month was reading outside. He hasn't even came here once. I couldn't care less where he is, but I'm stuck here. And nobody has even found me.
This whole month has been torture. Sure everything is so nice, but there's nobody to share it with. I'd enjoy this more if I was able to come and go when I'd like. Instead, I'm stuck here, reading. I've finished 28 books, this month! That's a book a day. That's how much time I have on my hands.
There's nobody to talk to here. Everyone just watches from a distance. A bunch of men standing around. Their eyes constantly following my every move. I can't even sleep without one of them at my door. If he was so worried I'd leave he should be here!
Here I am, completely alone, my feet in the pool and a book in my hands. It's peaceful out here. It's peaceful throughout this whole house. Nobody is around to talk or make any type of noise. Nobody is in a good mood either, so there's no way to lighten up the mood. It's just wake up, read, and then sleep. Nothing else. I'm stuck alone with only the books speaking to me. How pathetic.
"Where is she" I hear Nicholas ask. "She's outside" someone inside speaks. A whole month and that's the first voice I've heard. I thought I was going to go crazy for a moment. I stop myself from looking up and watching as Nicholas steps through the glass doors. I roll my eyes and continue reading my book. I really don't want to talk to him right now.
The words on my book grow darker, letting me know he was right over me. "Nice to see you Nicholas" I say as I turn the page and continue on reading. The book was a lot more interesting than any conversation we could be having right now. "You haven't even seen me" he speaks. Maybe that's because I don't want to. Or maybe that's because you haven't been here, in your own house!
I calmly place my book mark in the book and close it. Giving the water one last look, I take my feet out and stand up. "How was your month" please cut off my tongue. He raises his eyebrow, but still responds "it was fine. How was yours?"
I wish I could cut off his tongue. "It was great! You've got a very beautiful place here" I lie. He nods. What a fucking idiot. Not even someone as smart as him could realize what a woman is feeling. How clueless are men?
"Well, I've got to hop in the shower" I break the silence. I give him a small wave and walk in the opposite direction. The moment I turned around my smile dropped. I should rip his eyeballs out right now. Damn, I should've pushed him in the fucking pool. That would've been worth it.
The whole way upstairs, he was right on my heels. I hope he doesn't think he's getting in with me. He'd have to be delusional to think that. I open the door and set the book on top of my dresser. As I pull out my clothes for the night I hear him sit on the bed. "Why are you so tense" he asks.
Why am I so tense? My jaw clenches as I look down at the drawer. I drop what I had on the top of my dresser and reach for the vase. "Why am tense? Are you seriously asking me that" I quickly turn around and chuck the vase at him.
He ducks his head, letting the newly arrived flowers lay in a puddle of glass and water on the floor. "ARE YOU FUCKING CRAZY" he's yelling at me? "Am I crazy? You left for a MONTH! Then you come back and act like nothing happened. I was here ALONE for a month. I had nothing to do. Nobody to talk to. I was completely isolated you fucking asshole. Do you know what that does to a person? Of course you do because you had it worse! How fucking dare you kidnap ME and then LEAVE? The whole point in commuting this crime was to be with me, here" tears slowly stain my face.
Anger flashed all across his face. He was going to yell and he wasn't going to stop. He was going to throw a tantrum and end mine. "I was willing to stay with you. I wasn't willing to be alone" I break. His eyes change. He wasn't going to have any tantrum soon. He quickly gets up and walks towards me.
"I'm so sorry" he wraps his arms around me. I wrap my arms around him tightly. My body shook as I sobbed into his chest. I haven't hugged anyone in ages and this felt so nice. So normal. It's the one thing I need, a hug.
"Can I just go to sleep now" my voice comes out in muffles against his skin. He lets go of me and I look right up at him. I let go of him and wipe off my tears. He nods and makes his way over to the bed. Once he's under the covers I turn off the light and make my way over to him.