Psychotic Bitch

Chapter 10

Convincing everyone to let me leave was hard, but easier than I expected. I was sure she would turn me down. However, I had faith she would be out ruled. Which is exactly what happened. I just had to explain the fact that he hadn't contacted or done anything for 8 months.
I did the only right thing. I flew out to Italy. It was hard, but I did it. I needed to talk to the only person who could help me. My other me. My everything really. He would know what to do. Even if he didn't, I would listen to whatever he thought. Who am I to say he's wrong? I'm the one who might have Stockholm syndrome.
He's the only sane person I know. The cops are too set on getting him. My mom would go crazy if she found out I thought I was in love with him. My dad would encourage me to do whatever I think. I have no friends. Chase could never know. And my other siblings are just out of the picture, there's no way I'm asking them.
He was the only person I had. The only person I could talk to no matter what. He was the only one who would actually listen. Actually care. Actually help. My last hope.
So here I was, standing on his doorstep. Nervous as hell. I'm not even sure if he'll answer. Is he even home? Would he shut the door on my face? I wouldn't doubt it.
"Chris" Jimmy was beyond confused. It was written all over his face. "What are you doing here" he exclaims. Why was I here? Man, he's going to be surprised.
I give a tell-it-all laugh. "You're going to flip" I give away. He gives me a short hug before opening his door wider. I walk in his house, admiring it. It's everything he's ever wanted. Besides the family pet that is. He had a girlfriend, but no kid or wife. I thought he would by now, but whatever.
I sit on his couch and he does as well. I could see the confusion written all over his face. I bet he'll regret ever being curious. How do I tell him about dad? I mean it's not like I promised to keep it a secret. If I'm telling him my deepest secrets I might as well tell the full story.
So, that's what I did. I told him the whole story. The only thing I left out was the details on the orgasims and kisses. I mean he knows they happened, but he just didn't get the juicy details like he did about the rest of the story. He wasn't very surprised dad worked for him, just surprised dad was fine with the situation.
We've never really been in a position to where we had to trust our fathers opinion. However, now we have to put that at the back of our heads as we make this decision. Dad thinks that Nicholas really does love me. He believes that we should be together. I know it's not Nicholas brainwashing him or making him say this because my father is his own person. He would never do anything like that, no matter what. So with all of that, Jimmy is in such a hard place. Having my fate in his hands. I know I'm a shitty person for doing this, but I truly didn't know. He would know though.
"If you really feel it in you that you love him and dad is so sure that he loves you then maybe you two just have a complicated situation. Stockholm is a serious situation. You would have to be in a certain traumatic state for a while. I'm just not sure you've been in a traumatizing enough situation to be suffering from Stockholm syndrome. Maybe you actually do love the dude. But what are you going to do if you do? He's on the run, Chris."
I gulp and look directly into my brothers eyes. I don't know. I don't know the answer to his question, I usually do. "You would be on the run with him. You always did love the rush of adrenaline" he rolls his eyes in a playful way.
"Does he know where you are" he asks after a moment. I shrug. "I don't think so." I mean I went and told his guards to tell him I was leaving. I even gave them a hint too. Told them that I was going to the only person I could. Nicholas would understand what that meant.
"If he shows up to your house, tell him what hotel I'm staying at. Don't be threatened or lose your temper. He won't do anything to you because of me so don't worry" I explain. He nods. "Why don't you just call him? I have to go to the airport today. Call and say where you are" he suggest.
"Jimmy" I pause. My fingers pull my ring up and down in an attempt to calm my nerves. "I think he's going to go crazy. Do something stupid. He thinks I just left him."
I watch my brother frown. "Are you scared? If you're scared of him don't go running back Christina" he demands. I nod my head no quickly. "Okay so what? Do you want me to stay just to make sure everything goes by smoothly" he questions.
Again, I nod my head no. "I'll be fine Jimmy. My problem, not yours. I'm not completely sure if I'm sticking with him or not. I need to be alone to clear my mind anyways."
Jimmy understood. I knew he would. He always does. Every since we were small we always just got each other. It's how we moved. We went through life like we were twins. Everything we did, the other knew about it.
When I lost my tooth he would write to the tooth fairy, helping me beg for her not to be upset. Weird huh? I mean he sort of had to since I lost it trying to open crackers for us. He found it for me though so the letter was just thrown away. I wish we kept it, it's so cute.
We were each other's cause and effects. It'll be like that forever. If I go back to Nicholas, it'll be because Jimmy helped me decide. If things end well or bad, that's on me and what I do.

So what the fuck do I do?