Desire {Corpse fanfic}

{17} Offer

🎵 Clairo - Sofia

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Why don't you move in with me?

They were still hugging each other in the parking lot when he burst out this idea.

She immediately separated herself from his embrace and looked up at him in shock.

Y-you don't mean that.

No, I do.

Why not?

Well, umh I don't know,
Maybe because we only know each other for like a week?

Because ..

She tried to list other things, but this one reason seemed strong enough.

I don't know.

Can we like, sit down?

She gestured over at a bench at a park next to the parking lot. This was where the students came to hang out outside of lectures.

Sure.

They sat down and she took out her packed lunch and started nibbling on the carrot sticks dipping them in hummus. She offer Corpse some with a motion of her hand but he denied by shaking his head.

I don't want you to feel like you have to fix this situation for me.

Because you don't.

I'm just a little lost at the moment,
That's it.

I know, I don't want to.

I mean I do, but that's not all why I said it.

I really liked having you around last week.
And I think I would like to have you around more.
And if that can help you out as well then that's just great.

That's sweet.
You're sweet.

But I was over for one day.
You don't know if you would like me around for longer than that.

And besides I'm not sure how living together would solve my money problems.
I would obviously pay half of your rent.

But we could split it like 2/3 and 1/3.
Because you wouldn't be at the flat as much as me because of your classes.

I admire your enthusiasm.
But Corpse,
That's not how math works!

They both laughed, then she stared at the pavement for a few seconds processing his offer.

We should both just think about this for a few days I think.

Corpse suddenly started panicking. A lot of students were passing the bench they were sitting on and he felt like anyone could recognize his voice. His main demographic was this age group and out of all these students if even one person would hear their conversation and recognize his voice he could be ruined forever.

Actually Maya.

Can we get in the car instead?

I'm... I'm afraid someone will recognize me.

He lowered his voice and tilted his face down. His heart was beating fast and his muscules became tense, he really just wanted to get out of there as fast as possible.

Oh, yeah, that too.

How could I move in with you,
Where you work,
And not know this big secret of what you're doing?

I know...
But can we go please?

I'm serious.

He stood up to show urgency and when she looked at his hands she was shocked to see that they were shaking.

Yeah, yeah,
Sorry.

She quickly picked up her stuff and rushed back to the parking lot with him.

Corpse buried his face in his hands as he sat down in his car. He tried to take deep breaths to calm his hyperventilation. Maya instinctively reached over to rub his back. She was scared and taken aback by his panic but tried to not show it and just be comforting. She had no idea how seriously afraid he was of people finding out about his identity, and it made her worried.

I'm sorry..

No, don't be.

It's not this bad usually,
I just haven't slept in days.

Corpse felt bad that Maya had to see him like this, but it also reinforced him that he had to tell her about his job sooner or later because keeping it a secret from strangers is hard enough.

He finally calmed down enough to show his face again. His eyes were red and puffy and the tears made them really shiny. As much as Maya tried to not show her emotions, he could see that she was scared.

I'm really sorry you had to see this.

Not my finest moment.

I know this isn't very convincing, but I ment what I said, I'd love to have you around.
So please think about it.

I will.

And you should too.

Let's figure this out by Thursday.
I'll finish at 4, you can pick me up,
if that's okay.
And we'll talk somewhere less crowded.

Deal.

I'll go now.
I have to prepare for my next class.

Corpse nodded, he knew how hard Maya worked on her classes and projects, and he didn't want to be more of a distraction than what he already was by just showing up.

Take care, okay?

Corpse heard the concern in her voice, but she was right. He had to take better care of himself to not let these things happen, especially now because she was impacted by it, and he didn't want to become a burden.