𝙈𝙞𝙘𝙝𝙖𝙚𝙣𝙜 𝙊𝙣𝙚𝙎𝙝𝙤𝙩𝙨

𝙁𝙧𝙞𝙚𝙣𝙙𝙨 - 2

채영

'Oh...' I froze and felt a sudden pang in my heart, she had said it...

After that, I looked down and ran away from her, she tried calling my name but I choose to ignore her. She just said I was disgusting and I should stay away from her. If she that's what she wants,  then I'll definitely stay away from her. I would have loved to get rejected in a nice way but this?

I hate you, myoui mina, why? Why did I even loved you? Why do I really care for you when you don't even care about my decisions. I can't, I just love you so much that I can not hate you

After running away from the school I sneaked out and went to our apartment, I went to my room and looked for my luggages

'Fuck love... It's so cruel.' I thought as tears kept falling from my eyes and I tried to pack my things

"I won't be seeing you anymore. Hope you find happiness when I'm gone." I uttered and after I was done packing, I halted my steps in front of mina's room

I grabbed a paper and wrote something
I also went to look for something in my room

The drawing I made to her 2 years ago. I was about to give her this after I confess and today is the right time, but I can't give it to her face to face, cause as she don't wish to see my disgusting face.

After writing a small letter before I leave, I heard my phone ringing and felt my heart stop as soon as I saw the caller

Pengmi❤️🐧

CALLING*

ANSWER |   DECLINE

I pressed decline and just fell in her bed, laid flat, as I silently break down

"She's right... I'm disgusting and I do not deserve her.." I let out a bitter chuckle in between my sobs and weakly stood up, trying to walk towards my room with my wobbly legs

I held onto the wall for support and slowly clutch my chest, a sudden turbulence occurred on my heart

I was about to leave when I forgot that I had left something, oh right this fucking friendship bracelet... Who needs it anyways? We're done, now.. I had ruined our Friendship

I threw it on the floor and walked towards the door with my luggage, and bag, I was about to open the door when out of the blue I heard a sudden knock

knock knock*

I halted and just stared at the wooden door, letting out a sigh

I hope it's not you... After all you did say that you were disgusted by my own presence alone

You are confusing me, mina. What the fuck?

"Chaeng......" My heart started to throb as I heard her soft voice and I can hear her sobbing throughout this door

Why are you crying, mina? Please don't make me weak again. I hope you would realize that I really love you and realize the pain you had cause since day 1 to now. But here you are, in the other side waiting for me to open this door that I believe is going to make things hard for us

"I'm so sorry... Please, chaeng.. Open the door." She continued knocking, I leaned my forehead in the door and tried to stop my tears but I couldn't stop it and just let it fall from my eyes down to the floor

I have no choice, face her and slowly let go...

I opened the door and I saw her looking down, she then lifted her head and hugged me all of a sudden, my mind was in dazed

"I-I'm so sorry chaeng I'm so sorry." She sniffled as she buried her face into my chest, my eyes closed

I couldn't hug back, because this was making me weak and confusion was all over me

"I'm sorry, chaeng.. I hate myself... I shouldn't have said those words, you do not deserve those and I-I know you can't forgive me... But please, don't go..." She stuttered her words, letting out faint sobs

My shirt is now getting wet as I felt her tears falling nonstop, I sigh

"Uljima... don't cry, minari." I whispered and hugged her back cause I couldn't take it anymore

I want this day to be the last time I'll see her I want to see her smile and not crying, I don't want her to cry because of me

"D-Don't leave me chaeng..." She whimpered and hugged me tighter

Mina, I don't get it. You just told me to leave you and now you're here begging for me not to leave. I don't know, I'm too hurt to even process everything. I can't have you when you're already someone else's

"Please, c-chaeng.. Don't leave me." She kept mumbling those words, that really is hurting me

"I-I won't..."

I can't but I have to, mina. This is the only way to fix this heart of mine. I want to fix this lost heart of mine and find the right one.. Not you

"I-I'm sorry, chaeng... I really didn't mean to say those words.. I'm sorry, I can't afford to lose my best friend." Mina sobbed and yeah she was right, I'm just your friend and we're just friends and there is zero percent chance I'll be yours cause you already have someone who can take care of you. someone who'll love you. That someone isn't me.. And who am I to be yours when I'm just your friend

"It's okay, mina.."

I broke our hug and I lifted her head, wiped her tears using my thumb and gently caressing her cheeks, she closed her eyes and I kissed her forehead

I want to forget you and my feelings for you, but you keep running to my mind and heart

"I won't leave you because I know that I will forever be here..." I uttered while slowly pointing at her chest, giving a bitter smile

"I'm sorry, chaeng.. I can't love you, just the way you love me..."

"Please let's be friends, I won't hurt you even if I'm with you, please." She hugged me

I just got rejected and what should I do? I can't stop this feeling just by seeing you it makes my heart palpitate, maybe yes.. I should just let go of you and focus on our current relationship

"Okay, friends..."

Anyways, how y'all feeling? heart broken? okay let's worsen it😔 jk

I just love writing/reading angst coz why not

apologizing for all the grammatical errors and spelling errors

Thanks for reading🤍

-Authornim