Limerence

The One Who Changed Everything

I want to ask you if I scare you? If everything I am scares you? If you're one of the guys who are afraid to ask out a woman who is pretty, smart, and ambitious because these trio of traits makes us seem intimidating. Not that I would believe I was beautiful from anyone else than my mother. But I know I am smart because I work damn hard for it (and maybe because you tell me it). And forget the stars and the moon, I want the world and I'm prepared to give it to myself. Ambition is every part of me. You'd be right to be intimidated when you bring yourself to my alter but I'd get off my throne, signal off my armor, and open the gates myself for you.

I want to ask if you think that you pursuing me may be the downfall to your empire. Maybe it's easier to watch me be the one that got away instead of the one who changed everything. The rain is easier to love from inside your house, the storm is so much more powerful with an open window. Is my love too deafening like a booming thunderstorm, rattling the frames on your wall? Does my lightening strike to close to your house that I am no longer an adrenaline rush but a burning fear?

I would ask you. I would crumble my empire for you. Forget the overly lavish dinners and fireplaces, I would return to the dust for you. But I am so afraid that on the other side of my fortress, your answer won't be that you didn't court me because I was pretty and smart and intimidating. I am afraid on the other side there will be reasons my foundation cannot withstand, an army of answers I didn't prepare for.

I don't want to be the one you couldn't love. Don't chose to be my one that got away. You're the one who changed everything. I'm in ruins.