BACK HOME !Quinn unlocked the door and we all stepped in the house. everyone went up stairs because their going to bed.
me an Mattia walked up to our room as Blue was in my arms sleeping. mattia closed the door an I walked over to the side of the bed an softly laid Blue down ....
I put the blankets over her an took off my shoes.
Mattia took off his shirt an put on some shorts. I went to my closet an changed as well.
mattia then turned off the lights ....
then there was nothing but silence, I haven't talk at all because my thoughts was taking over me.
Mattia hasn't said anything nether, when hunter called he seemed a bit upset about it, he just doesn't wanna show me
an it makes me feel sick
I was done hanging up my jacket up, then i ran my hand over my face a bit stressed out ...
as I was about to go lay down, I felt mattia presents come close behind me. I smiled a little seeing him on the corner of my eyes.
he then aggressively turned around picking me up making my smile go bigger
I just really need him right now ....
i leaned down an kissed his lips as he walked us over to the bed an laid us down
"your so pretty mamas" he said cuddling me up like a baby "thanks bubba" I smiled a little
he chuckled an rubbed our noses together, then he playfully put kisses all over my face making me giggle. "i love you babyyyy" he wined
"I love youuu tooo bubbaaa" I wined cupping his face, he pouted an softly bit my nose, I chuckled an smiled a little
an there was silence again ....
until my phone ring
I looked over at my night stand an ...it was hunter again. fuck. my eyes started to water. I was about to reach for it but then mattia quickly grabbed it ....
I instantly turned around an tried to grab the phone from him ....
shit
"Mattia please give it back" I begged "no why the fuck does he keep calling you !?" he said irritated
"i'll tell you just please don't answer the ph-
before I could finish, mattia rolled his eyes an answered the phone putting it on speaker.
my heart dropped."hello ?" Mattia said in a serious tone "um hello ? who is this ?" hunter voice said "this her fucking man ?? why do you keep calling her ???" he said in a mad tone
"what do you mean her man!? she's my fucking girlfriend, who even are you !" Hunter said raising his voice
fuck.
mattia glared at me and hung up the phone. he throw the phone next to me as tears was already running down my eyes
"what the fuck Nelly !?" Mattia said pissed off "I was gonna tell y-you I swear" I said worried, he stood up from the bed balling his fist, I followed him
"mattia! please i-
he cut me off
"keep your fucking voice down, she's sleeping" he said madly, he then pulled my arm an walked me to the other room, closing the door
"so when the fuck were you gonna tell me?" he said as his eyes began to water "i was gonna tell you right now but then h-he called, I wasn't gonna keep it from you" I cried
"so that's why you turned off your fucking p-phone" he said madly "....y-yes but that because I didn't want us to argue like we are now" I said walking up to him
he shook his head as tears ran down his eyes, he was about to reach for the door but I pulled him back an jumped in front of the door ....
"please don't go, mattia i-i love you" I cried "you have a fucking boyfriend nelly !" he cried as well
"he's not my boyfriend, he never was my boyfriend, I never even slept with h-him" I said trying to catch my breath
I can't lose him again
he looked in my eyes an saw the pain as I did in his.
"me an him messed around an stuff but he will never be the best thing to me like you are m-mattia" i said as my voice cracked
he sobbed, not say a word
"say s-something please" I please kinda quite
he stared down at the floor like he was deep in his thoughts, he then looked back up at me with hurt, I saw that look. that look saying that he really wasn't ok .....
no please
he removed my hands from him an gently moved me from the door, I shook my head not wanting him to go. he then opened the door an walked out
oh no
I fail to the floor an sobbed with loud cry's, I couldn't breath. I felt like I was gonna die. not again, he can't leave again. where is he gonna go ??? all I wanted to do was scream at this point.
I wanted to chase him but there was nothing for me to say, I just want him to stay. we can't have one fucking minutes together an hurts me so much.
I just want him all to myself, all mine, I don't want nothing else in the world. im never gonna forgive myself.
Mattias will always be mine ...
he can leave an he with someone else but in my heart im never gonna move on. i'd rather die alone then to ever be with someone else ....
as I laid there crying, hearing is my hiccups an my winning. I heard the door opened behind me. I knew it was probably Quinn ....
"l-leave me alone please" I said in a quite tone
"nelly" I heard the voice say, I quickly turned around an saw Mattia with tears in his eyes
I stood up feeling relief in my heart ....
"i can't stay away from you" he said rushing over to me, he then pulled me to his chest as I wrapped my arms around him tightly
"i-im so sorry b-baby" I cried in his chest "don't be, after all the times I've hurt you, I should never be the one to leave" he cried
"it doesn't matter I fucked up an I would do anything just make you h-happy again" I as my cries got louder
he cupped my face an kissed my lips.
"don't scare me like that o-ok?" I said making our foreheads touch
"I w-wont, i-i promise" he said kissing my lips multiple times
welp :)
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