Little Bird (Ziall Horlik) M-preg

Chapter 14

Niall's POV

The second the line went dead, I broke down into tears. The way Zayn yelled at me and talked to me was too much for my heart to handle. I don't even know where he got the thought that I cheated in him. I didn't cheat on him. I would never do that do him.

Christopher started crying in his crib, but my heart was so broken and my mind was so confused, that I just let him cry. If anything, I cried with him.

What am I going to do with my life now? Where am I going to live, and how am I going to take care of the twins by myself? Questions started swarming my head as I panicked.

I continued standing in the nursery crying when my phone started ringing in my hand. My heart jumped from where it was in shattered pieces and I answered, hoping it was Zayn to apologize or to tell me he loved me and didn't just break up with me.

"Zayn?" I asked frantically. I wanted it to be him so badly, that it hurt ten times more when a soft voice spoke through the phone.

"Niall, it's Louis. I need you to stop Zayn from going anywhere near Harry. He's only going to lie and say shit that isn't true. I know how Harry is and he always makes a way of making everyone believe him. Is Zayn there?" Louis asked me panicked. I broke down into tears because I knew that Louis' warning came much too late. His help came when there was nothing to help.

"He left me! He hates me now because he thought I-I had... I didn't!" I cried into the phone and slid down the wall of the nursery. Both babies were crying now and it was just adding to the stress and pressure I felt in my young mind.

"Niall, calm down. I'm on my way over." He said, but I only cried harder. I wanted Zayn to love me again! I wanted him to come home and hold me, or take a bath with me or do anything we did together before this day. I wanted my Zayn back, but I knew in my heart I wouldn't ever get him back. He's always been so much better than me. I've never deserved him in my whole life. Maybe now he sees that and that's why he believed Harry's lie.

I dropped my phone and wrapped my arms around myself, wishing I wasn't even alive anymore with the amount of pain I was in. Both the twins were now screaming for me to tend them, but I didn't want to. I didn't want to have to take care of two people. For once, I wanted to be selfish and focus on myself. I wanted to think of all the things I've done that makes me deserve the pain I'm in right now.

I heard the front door open and someone run up the stairs. A part of me thought maybe it was Zayn coming back to me, but in my heart I knew it was over. He wouldn't be my knight in shinning armor that comes to save me from any pain I feel. He's not that person for me anymore because I'm not worth saving.

"Niall!" Louis gasped as he walked into the nursery. He kneeled beside me and wrapped his small arms around me, pulling me to his chest. I continued to cry, hoping that would release the pain I'm in. His arms let go of me before I even wanted him too, and he went over the the babies. He picked both of them up after checking their diapers and brought them to me.

"Niall, can you calm down enough so you can feed them. That's the only way they'll stop cr-"

"I don't want to tend them! I don't want to be a dad anymore! I don't want to love Zayn and I don't want anything I have right now!" I yelled at him through my tears. He rolled his eyes at me and set both twins on the floor, then moved my arms so I wasn't holding myself anymore. I was in too much emotional pain to fight him so I just sat there and cried my heart out while he also ripped off my shirt.

He got Christopher and held him up to my chest so he could eat, and he immediately latched on. My parental instinct kicked in and I forced my arm up to hold him. Louis wiped my tears and placed his chilled hand behind my neck, calming me down. He then got Aliyah and helped her start eating too. I was hyperventilating from my tears I had just shed, but Louis kept soothing me in so many ways I never thought would actually help. I trained my eyes on him and saw that he had some of his own tears in his eyes.