Broken Inside

Chapter thirteen

We sat on the couch in the basement still trying to figure out the complicated problems.

"I still don't understand why we still need to learn this." i said getting really frustrated.

"Maybe the teachers are just trying to complicate things for us." he joked.

"Karan we've been on this for half an hour already!" I said hitting him with my textbook.

"Okay okay sorry!!" He said holding his hands up.

I laughed hysterically.

"Hey come outside with me, I need a break from this math junk." i said getting up from the couch and walked towards the stairs.

"K" he followed after me.

We sat on the steps of the balcony in the backyard.

I took out a cigarette and lit it.

"You smoke?" Karan said sounding a little surprised.

"What do you think?" I said while ex hailing the smoke.

"I just didn't fully expect it from you." he said shaking his head.

"Well we all have our bad habits." I looked down at my worn out converse.

"All of our habits have a secret to it." he looked at my arms when he said that, then he motioned his hand out.

I took another drag and handed him the cig. He took an even longer drag and ex hailed slowly.

"Wanna share yours?" He said looking to me. I didn't realize I was staring at him so I quickly looked away.

"You're still wondering about my scars huh." I said taking the cigarette back.

He didn't answer, just looked at me.

I rolled my eyes.

"I started in sixth grade. I was never very social. I always stayed to myself and whenever people tried to get close to me I pushed them away. I was bullied a lot, because I was 'different'. Nobody understood me, and they still don't." I stopped and looked straight ahead but I could feel his eyes on me. I puffed on the cigarette again and sighed. "I have a lot of problems, physically and mentally. I just don't know how to deal with things."

It was silent for a little and then Karan put his hand on mine. It kind if made me jump.

"Your not alone you know. I don't know if you had any friends or whatever where you used to live but trust me there are some people who can help, make things better." he had a warm smile but sad eyes.

I could feel my eyes getting watery. I tried to hold back the tears.

Then Karan turned his arm over towards the palm side and I could see faded scars that were barely noticeable even in the evening sun.

I widened my eyes and looked at him.
I lightly brushed my finger along the scars.

"Carmen it really does get better, you just need the right people at your side." and without warning he lightly kissed me on my cheek which of course made me blush, and I could feel the warm tears falling down my face.

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Later me and Karan spent the day at the park.

We walked around and even played basketball for a while then we walked home.

When I got back Tia was finishing papers in her office while Axel was eating some cereal for dinner.

"Hey Carmen come here." Axel said

"What's up" I said walking towards him.

He lowered his voice.

"So what did you guys do." he said his tone casual.

"We just hung out." i said shrugging my shoulders.

"Okay.." he nodded his head.

"What?" I knew something was up.

"Nothing just overheard you earlier in the back."

My heart started pumping fast.

"About?" I asked trying to play it cool.

He pointed to my pocket where i had the cigarettes in.

"What do you m-"

" i won't tell her." he said in a serious tone. "I just want you to think before making stupid decisions."

I stood there speechless.

"I just don't want anything to happen to you." he said quietly as I started to walk to my room.

I could feel my face red and my hands shaking.

I stood in the shower for a while trying to cool off.

What's the big deal? He said he won't tell. I thought to myself. He's just looking out for me. But what else does he know. I don't really hide my scars well. I wouldn't be surprised if he knew that but with him knowing this just makes me even more worried.

I shut off the water and wrapped myself in my towel.

Then I changed into pajamas.

All this thinking made me feel stressed so I took out my pipe, and weed and lit it.

It is my best stress reliever. I got more yesterday so I had plenty for a month at least if I don't use it all.

I laughed to myself. All I could think about at this moment was Karan. He made me feel happy in such little time, like he is someone I could depend on.

The feeling he makes me have is too much to handle. Am I in love? Or is this a simple crush?

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So I am not proud if how i write but I hope u think my story is good and what do you think will happen next?

Karan is bae😍 just sayin.

Welp until next time worms!

Oh yeah and yesterday i creeped on this hot guy.. lol he wants me! (I sneaked a pic of his beautifulness while he was on his phone) im a spy!!

-taina👽🌸