The Giant and His Heart. [Light at the end of the tunnel]

Chapter 48 - "My Mother"

I was panicking and shaking. I didn't know what to do people. I tried calling her back but her phone was on voicemail. Oh my gosh! I was pacing up and down now trying to think of what to do, how to find her. I mean I couldn't call her and get any hints on where she was so that I could at least try to look for her since her phone was on voicemail...I'm sure the battery died. Was she in danger? Was she hurt? She sounded like she was. The way I was so terrified people I didn't know what to do with myself. I mean, no matter what our differences were in the past, she was still my mother. I was about to leave the apartment and go try to look for her which was crazy in itself I know but I had to do something, then I remembered that Sophia was here with me. I couldn't leave her all by herself. I paced in front of the door thinking and mumbling to myself. Then I thought of the giant. He was the best person to tell all of this. He would know what to do. I mean, my man is amazing people, so I'm sure he could help me find my mother. I speed dialed him. After a few rings, he picked up.
Zanoxolo: "Woman I'll be home in 30-."
Me: "Zano please help me. It's my mother. She just called and told me that she's in an alley that she doesn't know. She sounds hurt Zano! And I've been trying to call her but her phone is on voicemail-."
Zanoxolo: "Woman calm down." He cut me off.
Me: "Zano I can't calm down! I'm telling you that my mother is hurt and in danger, please you've got to help me find -."
Zanoxolo: "Baby, nothing's wrong with your mother."
Me: "Zano! Listen to what I'm saying please. I know you don't like her but she's still my mother." I said in a raised frustrated and panicked voice.
Zanoxolo: "Baby, I'm telling you, your mother is fine. She's with that boyfriend of hers at his place."
Me: "But-."
Zanoxolo: "She's fine woman. Don't fall for her games."
Me: "But how would you know that she's at her boyfriend's place?"
Zanoxolo: "Because I have tabs on her." He told me nonchalantly. Wait...what? I blinked and stopped my pacing. I was shocked and a little scared.
Me: "What?"
Zanoxolo: "You heard me woman."
Me: "But why would you be keeping tabs on my mother Zanoxolo?"
Zanoxolo: "Just in case." He replied vaguely. I huffed. This was not the time for him to be his giant self.
Me: "Just in case of what Zanoxolo?" I asked on a raised voce. He grunted.
Zanoxolo: "Woman, it's not what you're thinking. I would never hurt your mother. I don't touch women. You know this." Yes I did. But still...
Me: "Then tell me the reason."
Zanoxolo: "Woman you know my line of work. It's dangerous. I have to be on guard 24/7 now and protect what's mine. In the past I wasn't worried about these assholes trying to use my weaknesses to hurt me because I didn't have any. But now I do. I have a fucken woman." He growled. Oh my gosh! ... "so things are different now. Your life has been put in danger more than once just because they knew you were my weakness, so for that shit not to happen again, I need to put in reinforcements and that means also protecting the people that you care about." Oh my gosh! ... "so since I know my woman still loves her mother and wishes to be reunited with her, I'm forced to also protect her because she can also be used against me since she's connected to you and you to me." I was speechless people. I seriously didn't know what to say. I mean, what do I say to that? Thank you? Thank you wouldn't be enough. Where did he come from... "so that's why I said, your mother is fine because if she wasn't, I would've been notified." I swallowed and blinked back my tears.
Me: "I trust you Zano, but please can you check and make sure that she's really fine because she sounded hurt...she was sobbing Zano so please just check." He grunted.
Zanoxolo: "Call you back in a minute." He hung up. The giant had a way of just rocking my world people. At first I had been scared that he was keeping tabs on my mother for a different reason which when I think about it now, I had been crazy thinking. The giant would never do something physically hurtful to a woman especially to my mother. But coming back to my mother people, if she was fine as the giant had said and was really at her boyfriend's place, then why would she call me sobbing telling me that she's in an alley she didn't know? She made it seem like she had been kidnapped or something. I mean what the heck people?! Why would she do that? How cruel and evil of her to do that. What had forced her? Is this a cry of attention?Wasn't she the one who threw me away like I was nothing? My phone rang, it was the giant. I picked up.
Me: "Hey, is she okay?"
Zanoxolo: "Yes woman." Oh my gosh! Nowthat the giant was confirming that she was completely fine, I just couldn't understand why she would pull a stunt like this. What was she trying to achieve? I had been really worried and scared for her. How could she play with my emotions like this? What kind of a mother was she.
Me: "But, why would she..." I trailed off with tears forming in my eyes.
Zanoxolo: "She was just trying to play and trick you to get your attention baby."
Me: "But why Zano? I really don't get it? Why does she hate me this much? What did I ever do to her?" I asked crying. The giant growled.
Zanoxolo: "This is one of those times I wished I could break one of my rules. Kill all of them, starting with your ugly friends."
Me: "Zano." He grunted.
Zanoxolo: "I said I wished woman." I snorted out loudly. I couldn't help myself. This giant! ... "and there's nothing wrong that you did baby. Your mother is just a sick person." I sighed and wiped my tears.
Me: "I love you." I told him softly. He growled deeply in possessiveness.
Zanoxolo: "Owning my woman's heart is my greatest achievement." Oh my giant.
Me: "I really really love you."
Zanoxolo: "I'll be home in 20 minutes, so when I get there, you better show me how you really love me woman." He growled sexily. My body tingled and I blushed.
Me: "I won't be able to."
Zanoxolo: "Why the fuck not?" I giggled because he sounded really pissed off.
Me: "Because your little sister is here."
Zanoxolo: "Bug?" I hummed my response... "fuck...okay. I guess I have to wait to be in between my woman's thighs then." I giggled. It was cute how the giant nicknamed Sophia 'Bug'. When I first heard him call her that, I seriously swooned. I get why Sophia loved and idolized the giant because of the way he was with her. It was special. When I saw them together, I always imagined the giant being like that with the children of his own. He would be a good father... "woman. I need to go."
Me: "Okay. Bye." He hung up. Even though the giant had made me feel a little better, I was still hurt over the thing with my mother. What she just did now was to open up old wounds. I mean, yes I was still trying to come to terms with her abandonment but I didn't think about it too much because of the unbearable pain I felt when I did. Now this had just piled on top of that pain. Like, I just can't get over the fact that she called me literally sobbing guys and have me all panicked and scared just for nothing. I really had believed that she was hurt and in danger. No man, the giant was correct, my mother was sick people.

It was night time. We were in bed, the giant and I, and Sophia was in the other room sleeping. She had decided that she wanted to sleepover. Ever since the giant got home from work earlier on up until the time it was time for us to sleep, Sophia had been hogging the giant's attention which I didn't mind. She was a kid and she had missed her big brother so I had given them space and watched my shows on the TV and also did my hair. Yes, I plaited my own hair. I did just simple plaits...the ones that went straight back. I liked to keep my hair natural. Okay, I'll tell you guys. The reason why I kept my hair natural most of the times was because I'm scaredy cat. I'm scared to get my hair tightly pulled by someone else. I cried tears when it happened. Tell you no lies. But don't judge me okay. Anyway, so Sophia had been chatting up a storm with the giant. I only heard her here and there but overall it was kids stuff. I giggled sometimes when all I heard from the giant was his signature grunts. My man you guys! Anyway, what I wanted to say was, the giant and I didn't get a chance to talk. Remember he had said that he'd tell me about that 'important work stuff' when he came back home.
Me: "So...are you going to be going on another mission next week." He grunted against my ear. My back was against him... "what is the mission this time?"
Zanoxolo: "It's about what I told you the last time woman."
Me: "But what are you going to be doing exactly?" He sighed.
Zanoxolo: "I can't give you the full details woman, but this time it might take three to four days for us to accomplish it." Wait...what? So did that mean that he'll be gone for four days?!
Me: "What?" I exclaimed turning and facing him. Even though I couldn't see his face in the dark, I just had to face him. He grunted.
Zanoxolo: "I knew you were not going to like this."
Me: "So that's why you've been stalling to tell me?" He grunted.
Zanoxolo: 'My woman worries a lot." I huffed.
Me: "But four days Zano-."
Zanoxolo: "I'm going to be fine woman. I'm not going to die." I smacked his arm.
Me: "Don't say that." I raised my voice.
Zanoxolo: "Okay."
Me; "Zano you have to come back-." He kissed me.
Zanoxolo: "I will." He whispered against my lips... "nothing's going to keep me away from my woman." He pressed his lips against mine again.
Me: "Is it dangerous?" I asked nervously.
Zanoxolo: "It's always dangerous baby."
Me: "I mean, is it dangerous dangerous." He laughed softly.
Zanoxolo: "My woman is cute." I huffed annoyed with him. I wasn't trying to be cute.
Me: "Zano-."
Zanoxolo: "Let's sleep baby." He said pulling me close.
Me: "But-."
Zanoxolo: "Sleep."
Me: 'Zano-."
Zanoxolo: "Sleep." So annoying!
Me: "You're annoying." He just grunted. I knew I wouldn't be getting anything in when he became like this. I stayed awake for quite some time, and then I eventually fell asleep.

The next morning, I was woken up by a ringing phone. It was my phone. The giant groaned behind me.
Zanoxolo: "Fuck. Who's calling you at this time? It's fucken 4 am!" He grumbled angrily. I reached for my phone next to the bed. It was my mother guys, if you can believe it. I groaned and picked it up.
Me: "Mama." I greeted with my eyes closed.
Mother: "You don't care about me at all Busisiwe." She said shouting.
Me: "What do you mean I don't care about you?" I asked on a peeve.
Mother: "This child! I called you yesterday telling you that I ran into some trouble. You didn't even show up." Is this woman being serious right now?
Me: "How could I show up to a place I didn't know you were at?"
Mother: "So all in all you didn't even look for me?" I huffed angrily.
Me: "Mama what do you want from me? Aren't you safe now."
Mother: "People come and listen to this child who I gave birth to. So you don't know who I am to you anymore?" Argh people!
Me: "Mama didn't you disown me?"
Mother: "I knew it. You're still sulking about that. I was joking. Geez! What can't you take a joke Busi." Oh my gosh. How could she? I mean really guys. Since when was telling your child that you didn't want her anymore a joke? And what was worse was that she had said a lot of mean things that day too. Now she's saying it was all a joke! I just couldn't guys...like really now. My heart couldn't take no more. If this woman knew what kind of damage she was causing my heart.
Me: "Mama please leave me-."
Mother: "Oh so just because you have a man that loves you now, you think you're better than me? You think he will stay faithful to you and not cheat? I don't know who you'll be left with when that day comes because Andisiwe told me that ever since you've been with that man, you have changed-." The phone was suddenly snatched away from my ear by the giant.
Zanoxolo: "Fuck off," He growled dangerously on the phone... "do you hear me? Fuck off." Oh boy! To say he sounded pissed was an understatement... "if you have nothing better to say, leave my woman the fuck alone, or else, I'll be paying you and that weak ass man of yours a visit." He threatened... "you hear me? ... good." He hung up..................................................