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Divorce and all that Jazz...

It was raining. Of course it was. This was England. Everyone knew that it was raining a lot in England. Not all the time tho, but still a lot.

I opened the big door to a giant Building and looked at the golden letters on a board next to the doors.
'Gina Green, Lawyer.' It said.
I smiled and walked in right when Gina, a women in her late 30s/ early 40s greeted me.
'Lily! Welcome back!' She laughed.
This divorce was a shitload of work because of all the papers that I had to go through but well it still was worth it. I wouldn't spend the rest of my life with a dickhead who cheated on me for such a long time and then had the audacity to slap me in my fucking face.
My last words to Roger were that he'd hear from my lawyer and still to this day I never changed my mind. Gina was an amazing lawyer and I would never go back to Roger. Wasting my time with him and thinking he was the love of my life was probably the biggest mistake anyone ever made.

He went back to this chick he cheated on me with very shortly after I left and in fact, he wasn't the only one who started new. Or well in his case not completely new since he was with her before.
No I found someone beautiful, someone way better than Roger. Someone who was the true love of my life, and always was, in fact, I found the best of the best. His name was Keith.
I met him at work.
He didn't care about my past or that I had a child, in fact her cared about me and he made sure that me and Kelly always had a nice life.
Yes, Kelly. My baby girls name was Kelly.
Freddie and myself went to a concert soon after Roger and I broke up because he wanted to cheer me up and many unknown bands were there, one was called 'Kelly and the Kings' and Kelly, the singer had a beautiful voice and I really liked her name, that day I decided to call her Kelly if it's a girl and I actually had no idea how I would call her if she was a guy.
Roger in fact didn't give a shit about his own child since he was back with this girl, which confused and upset me because when I left he really seemed to wanting to take care of her.

Whatever. Keith was a wonderful dad, even if he wasn't her real dad.
I knew the time would come where Kelly would question why Roger didn't spend time with her and to be honest I had to clue what I'd say but the time wasn't there yet because she could hardly talk and that was fine.

I greeted Gina and we went to her office. She closed the door as her smile faded.
'Taylor wants to know when he'll see his child.' She said.
Wow, did she just read my thoughts?
'Ok, well it would be great if Kelly grew up with both her parents loving her but I'm confused on why now?' I answered and shook my head.
'We can arrange a meeting.' She said.

I agreed to allow Roger to see Kelly but only if someone guided it and I wouldn't have to see him.
I don't know why, I knew I was strong but yet it would break me if I would have to see Roger.
I felt like he was a stranger, all the good memories about the two of us were gone and I didn't even want to tell him about my plan to move countries with Kelly trough my lawyer.

God, I hated all this. We could've been forever.
Roger and Lily, Lily and Roger.
But no.
He had to go and fuck it up. Was I that hard to love? Was I not enough?

I had Keith and yet whenever I was here I kept thinking about Roger and how it would be if we would raise Kelly and be happy. Together. As a family.
Was this really it?

I got 1/5 of Rogers Money, it was a lot. But I didn't want that. I just wanted to be happy.
With him?