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Roger.

It was actually sunny, as I had Kelly in my arms and stood in front of Ginas Office.
Two weeks ago Roger wanted to see his daughter and here I was, bringing Kelly to Gina so Roger could pick her up and his visit could be guided.

I knocked at the door and Gina opened but my heart stopped as I saw no one else than Roger sitting behind her desk with an undefinable look on his face. It was a mixture of sadness, stress and anger that I never saw on him before.

'Gina, can I talk to you for a sec?' I said as I left the room before even fully entering and she followed me and closed the door behind her.
'Why is he here? You said I wouldn't see him, yet he's here.'
Gina who could clearly tell that she messed up tried to calm me down and explained, that she tried to tell him to leave but he didn't listen and she couldn't call the security because no one picked up.
'Fine.' I said and went on by saying: 'but I won't talk to him.'
We went inside and Roger sat there, looking like a little boy. He looked hurt and yet as if he hated me so much but at the same time...loved me?
I shook the thought off my head and hold Kelly tighter.
I then gave her to Gina and turned to Roger.
'You have two hours starting now. Don't mess it up.'
With these words I left.

While I unlocked my car I was getting mad at myself. I wanted to talk to Roger, ask him how he was, how he was doing, how life was going, maybe if he had new songs or maybe even how his relationship was. But I didn't. Of course I didn't. I was so stuck in the memory of him hitting me in the face and me leaving and getting my life back on track, that I just saw him as bad whenever we talked.
Or well, we didn't even talk. More whenever I saw him which wasn't most of the time.
Let's say whenever I thought of him, which I found myself doing a lot of the time recently.
Keith really was my everything, I loved him. But Roger...there was something about this man which wouldn't let me sleep at night and haunted me all day.

When the time came to pick Kelly up I got pretty upset because I knew that I wouldn't talk to him or see him ever again and only Gina would be the person who would carry Kelly from mom to dad and back.
I walked inside the big building and stepped in the lift, as suddenly Roger stepped inside too.
But without Kelly or Gina or anyone.
'I had to use the bathroom. Kelly is upstairs with Gina, just the way you want it.' He said and turned away. I just nodded.
'How are you?' I asked which seemed to confuse Roger.
'Why would you care?' He answered in a hateful way and looked at his feet.

Rogers POV:
'Why would you care?' I heard myself say, as I answered Lily's questions on how I was. I looked at my feet, why the fuck did I say this? I really wanted to talk to her. Really. I had no one, I just wanted Kelly in my life since Lily moved on. I don't blame her. I was an asshole. I broke up with Angelina. She wasn't Lily. I didn't love her. In fact, no one was Lily. No matter with what girl I went home after a long night of drinking and drowning my thoughts in alcohol nothing made me happy. No one did. But seeing Lily here right next to me, looking this good and high up in life broke my heart.
I had all the money in the world but it didn't give me anything. I couldn't buy myself happiness. I was so lonely. I was so happy when I had Lily in my life but I had to go and mess it all up.
And I slapped her in her face. What was I thinking? All the parties, all the fame, all the alcohol and drugs and all the money really got on me. I ruined everything I ever wanted.

'Ok. I just wanted to make sure that you're fine. You don't seem so well.' she said and made me feel relieved that she didn't give me a hateful answer. Before I could say something she went on.
'Treat Kelly in a good way. She's all you have besides this Angelina of yours and if you do anything to her then I'll cut your dick off.' She said. With those words she stopped talking.
'No. She is all I have. I broke up with Angelina. She's not you. In fact, no one is you. I've been chasing happiness ever since but without you by my side, I couldn't find it. There are nights when I feel so empty. I just want Kelly if I can't have you and Kelly. Freddie told me on why you called her Kelly. It's very cute. A nice idea. Kelly is so beautiful and I would never hurt her.' I answered right when the doors opened and we both entered the long hallway that lead us to Ginas Office.