Our Destiny Was An Accident

Chapter 4: Is Han in love

Amy's personality was very interesting. She was very enthusiastic towards her study and she was a quick learner too. Within one month, she was able to read and write in korean language as well as in english. But the most amazing fact that came into highlight was that that Amy could understand as well as speak about ten languages, discovered so far. Though her ability to read and write those languages wasn't intact. Probably, she used to work as a translator, and favorably this talent of her isn't lost completely. All thanks to nurse Seo's witty mind that helped Amy resurfacing her concealed talent. Since she had doubts where Amy could have came from, she tried some basic trick to find her originality. She showed Amy an Arabic video in order to discover if she could understand the language or not. If she does, chances will be high that she does belong to this nation. Nurse Seo was overjoyed when Amy told her that she can understand their conversation. But to be double sure that her theory of finding her homeland is right, she tried to show her other countries clips as well. Seo was taken aback by Amy's respond. She was able to understand Hindi, Urdu, Arabic, Turkish, Bengali along with English, Korean, Chinese, Japanese and French.
Dr. Han also felt happy to find this out. This incident was a hope that her memories are not completely lost, it is indeed retractable.

Although her learning process was going smoothly but being a girl she need to know something more.
One morning, when Amy woke up, she felt mild pain in her lower abdomen. She went in the restroom and came out, frantically calling nurse Seo. Seo came in worriedly and asks the reason for her panic-stricken behaviour. Amy anxiously asks Seo to help her, call Dr. Han, save her life, she's gonna die, she is bleeding, her urine is red, her lower abdomen is unbearably painful and she can't stand straight. Nurse Seo, who initially got terrified, on realising the whole situation, couldn't hold her tickling stomach and laughed out loud. Upset Amy asks Seo her reason to laugh when the situation is so serious. Nurse Seo, while catching her breath, advices Amy to calm down first and not to fret over her bleeding. It's a physiological phenomenon and she is not gonna die from this. Seo then educates her about menstrual cycle and basics things related to the subject. Before leaving she offers her some chocolates she used to keep as emergency food and advices that if her pain becomes unbearable she should tell her right away.

Though Amy's learning attitude was very good, there were two things that disquiet Han a lot. First was her headache and insomnia, that was making her dependent on sleeping pills, and second was her social interaction. She refuse to step out her room without nurse Seo or Dr. Han. When Seo leaves her on garden bench and someone tries to approach her or talk to her, she doesn't reply and walk straight to her room escaping eye contact with others. When doctors other than Han visits her and try to ask few questions, she gets angry and yells at them until they move out of her room. When Dr. Han asked Amy, why she is so indifferent towards other people, she simply replied that apart from Seo and him no one is good enough.
Amy: "You guys guide me, teach me and help me learning things but contrarily others just try to ask me questions instead. I hate it. And their fake smile, it gives me headache."
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It's been 2 months since Amy's memory rehabilitation programme but no progress was made. Hypnotherapy didn't work. Dr Han even tried taking her to the site of the accident in hope that she may recall something but in vain. He even took her to various shopping areas, tourist spots and one mosque, that is situated there, thinking she might have visited some sites and maybe someone recognise her at these places. To his dismay, even this plan backfired. But it had one merit. He got to know that Amy enjoys discovering new places. Doing something new always excites her. She even learned a lot through this.

Amy is a constant learner. She keep reading books, watch learning videos, asking questions and all. It helped her mind to grow from a toddler to a teenager level and that's only in mere three months. Now she is able to understand a lot of thinks and this became a point of concern for Dr. Han. Now, she has started questioning things which are hard to be answered. Amy asked Dr. Han about her past life, her home, family etc. thinking that they were friends before the accident and that he knows her well. Her trust made him feel even more miserable. He couldn't say anything looking at her doe-eyes but forced to make an excuse that he cannot tell her anything about her past life. She need to remember it by herself or else her memory may get fabricated and mislead her or she may suffer brain damage if she forces herself to remember her past when her brain is not ready to take the shock. Partly, his justification was true. During her therapy sessions, it was evident that she is subconsciously blocking herself from some unbearable shock. As much as she tries to retract her lost memory, the more severe her symptoms turns, including apnea and hypoxia making her go unconscious. In despair, he put a halt to her memory therapy since it provided no benefit but sufferings.
As time pass, Han's hope, that she will regain her memory and will be able to resume her normal life, starts fading away. Every time he looks at Amy, he only prays for a miracle to happen, for her to regain her memory, for her family to somehow reunite with her, for her to be happy, happier and happiest in the world. Somehow, he keeps wishing to see her smiling face. Somehow, like a destiny, he started feeling something that he never felt with anyone, something that he is yet unaware of.

Dr. Han is a role model among doctors and crush of many female doctors and nurses. He is young, tall, handsome, talented, with IQ level 200. He is not just a neurosurgeon but the sole owner of that hospital. His grandfather was the founder of the hospital. He is a workaholic with an unfriendly persona. People find it hard to start a conversation with him. They could only admire him from afar. But with Amy he is totally different. He smiles at her, a face he never show to anyone. He is clement when he teaches her, but a ruthless teacher for all. He is soft, caring and warm with Amy but harsh, strict and cold with others. This biasness made some nurses get jealous of Amy. They see Dr. Han taking extra care of her and always taking her side whenever she throws a fit. Amy still has some social and anger issues that needs some time and except for Seo and Han others take her behavioural issue as her being arrogant and impudent. Malevolent nurses started teasing her and badmouthing her. Actually she is a nice girl who hates hypocrites. So one day when she had enough, she started shouting at nurses at the top of her lungs. Nurse Seo rushes to calm her down. She drags Amy to her room and orders her to behave. Amy starts complaining about nurses to Seo and tells her that she should tame them before giving her any lecture. She continues complaining and even starts cursing them making Seo furious.

Seo( yelling): Stop behaving like a child. Who taught you those words.

Seo's loud voice makes Amy go stun. Seo realises that she got harsh on Amy and instantly apologises to her. She further advices her that she must not hate anyone. Just like bad food upsets the stomach and destroys the health, bad thoughts destroys the mind. Hateness, resentment, revenge, these are all evil thoughts that she must avoid. And cursing is also bad for health.

Amy: I already have a destroyed mind, so it won't make a difference, I just hate them. I'll do as I please. Suppression also has bad effects on health, do you know that? Also, you cannot scare me with your words, since I have nothing to lose.
Seo: Isn't it's enough for you to start afresh, since you have nothing to lose. You are such a quick learner that everyone praises your effort. Then why pay attention to those who mean nothing to you, allowing them to affect your health. Learn to let go of unimportant matters, dear.
Amy: But they always tease me and makes me angry.
Seo: Just don't react. If you stop listening to them, they will get tired and stop soon.
Amy: I too don't want to hear them, but I have ears that works involuntarily. I've no choice. I just hear them and gets angry.
Seo: Don't let your emotion control you. Strong person are those who control their emotions and act smart with the power of knowledge.

Amy understands what Seo wants to convey. She gets up and confronts nurses saying that she hated them but will stop now because she don't want to ruin her health because of them. Next she wishes them luck with their hateness saying: "I wish you hate me so much that you get sick of it."
(Still cursed. Long way to go for Amy) Thinks Seo who watches Amy making a sarcastic apology.
On the other hand, nurses were puzzled with Amy's behaviour and laughed at her back. This time Amy went straight to her room, ignoring them completely. However, Seo helped nurses understand Amy's word and teaches them some moral and behavioural lessons. Later, nurses expresses regret to Amy and begs pardon for their rudeness. In return, Amy also makes a sincere apology for overreacting. Both parties forgives each other with a smile. This way she grow everyday by learning, experiencing, making mistakes, accepting her flaws, and correcting her wrong moves.