Our Destiny Was An Accident

Chapter 16: It's PTSD

Dr Kim goes inside and sprinkle some water to wake Amy. She is exhausted but he needs to talk to her. Furthermore, she has to take medicines to relax completely or else she may suffer nightmare attack.
Dr Kim offers her energy drink complementing her braveness. He tells her that she is stronger than him and Dr Han.
"Enough with this cheese talk. I know I failed." Replies Amy in glum.
Dr Kim: Then, may I tell you the reason?
Amy looks at him waiting for the answer and Dr Kim starts explaining her.
Dr Kim: You lost because you wanted to overcome your fear without acknowledging the reason behind it. Overcome your fear with amusement is a great idea, but you need to know what you fear and why. People who fears height, often foresee themselves falling when standing at a height while other enjoys what they see in their front, the beautiful scenery. People fears snake because of its deadly poison but herpentologist play with it daily. Fear often arises due to lack of knowledge, so to overcome it you need to gain knowledge. Now tell me what you saw or how you felt when lights flashed on your eyes.
Amy: I felt as if lights are engulfing me into darkness and I saw death.

Amy sighs and presses her head with hands to alleviate her headache. Dr Kim observes it and tells her to rest giving her some medicines which makes her sleep.
Dr Kim and Dr Han sat for some conversation where Dr Kim confirms to Han that it is indeed PTSD. But he consoles Han saying as long as she is informed prior to the exposure she can deal with it. She now understands that not everytime she needs to face the problem. Sometimes avoiding eye contact becomes a better solution.
Dr Han: But you didn't said anything like that to her. How do you know?
Dr Kim: The way I know how much you love her.
Han is taken aback with his response. He feels confident that he can treat her. He tries to make eye contact to tell him that now he entrust Amy to him but couldn't since he caught his deep hidden feelings, so he just wipes his sweat on palm on his pant. Dr Kim holds his hand and tells him that they together can treat her, he is certain.
He adds that this time she was able to withstand the exposure for 2 minutes long and this is her threshold time. We will try to expose her to this situation for only 2 seconds for her therapy sessions so that she could work on it. The more she get used to it easier it will be for her to overcome this. And as she gains confidence we will try to increase the time gradually. I will call it a success if she is able to withstand her fear for 30 minutes with subtle changes in her vitals. That is the best we could achieve. Dr Kim clarifies the prognosis and the extent of treatment to ensure transparency and avoid any false hope that could hinder his mind from being logical. PTSD is incurable and they cannot eradicate the symptoms completely instead they will work on how to diminish its intensity so that it could become bearable and nonfatal.
Dr Han understands Dr Kim outright and they discuss further on Amy's treatment plan, scheduling her therapy sessions, medicines and more.
Once done, Han enters the room where Amy is sleeping on the sofa. Dr Kim suggests that she should sleep for few more hours since it was a hectic day for her. Dr Han appreciates his concern but elucidates that soon it will be dark outside that could trouble her so he must take her home now and picks her on his arm driving her home safely. He puts her on the bed and sat besides her holding her hand, caressing it, kissing it, then removes hair out her face and leaves after kissing her forehead.
Amy wakes up in the evening, drinks a glass of water and after thinking for a while she takes out paper and pen and writes something.
Fear= lack of knowledge
Awareness= triumph over darkness.
She sticks it beside her previous note and steps out her room. She saw Lee sitting with Han who is explaining her condition to him. Lee runs to Amy on seeing her and asks about her health. She replies that she is better now, but he sensed black clouds over head of his two friends, so he decides to lit some happy candles. He asks Amy about her dance class wondering how she looks on dance floor requesting her to show some moves she learnt but she refuses saying her head feels heavy. Lee invalidates her excuse and encourages her to be enthusiastic and sporty like him. He starts the music and shows his moves which was funny, that he deliberately did, to make Amy laugh. Amy likes his funny moves and tries to copy it, coming in action, lively and cheerful. Later she also shows her moves that she learnt both in dance and piano class.
Finally, they retire on sofa and Lee commands Han to order pizza they gonna enjoy while watching a romantic movie. Amy interrupts Lee by telling that they are not watching movies. They are fake and provides false information rather they should see Animal world, Discovery science like something. Lee gives her a disappointed look and turns to Han and shouts.
Lee: You punk! Do you really have to make her exactly like you. (Then turning his head to Amy).
This guy is a bore. Don't listen to him. It's not true that movies are useless. (While surfing channels to see if any channel is showing any good movie that just started) Today, I will show you how much you can learn from movies.
Lee couldn't find any so he just end up connecting his OTT password to the television and starts a movie that was on his wishlist. As movie proceeds Lee explains her things like dating, boyfriend, girlfriend, romantic moments etc. Han is flustered and asks Lee what he is trying to do. ( Han's mind is crying like why he is spoiling his naive partner). He doubtfully questions whether he is teaching her sports or spoiling her with these nonsense stuffs.
" Why? What's wrong with this?" Lee and Amy questions back in sync dominating Han.
" Nothing. I was just asking." Replies Han feeling all recessive.
Amy makes it clear to Han that Lee is also her love teacher who is teaching her definition of love, how to socialise with people, make friends or boyfriend, how to understand emotions and much more.
" I can perceive your anger towards Lee. Don't you give him that look. I am not a child, okay. I need to know these things."
Amy supports Lee like an obedient student.
Lee gets emotional and says "I love you" with a little finger heart and receives same response from Amy that just burns Han with jealousy but he feels handicapped. All he could do is drink cold water to calm himself down and this makes Lee so contended with his revenge.
"Are you guys dating?" Asks Han.
And both replies,"Yes".
Han chokes himself while drinking water and coughs hard.
Amy understands why he is so staggered, so she comes clean that they are just playing to be girlfriend and boyfriend as Lee suggested so that she can have the practical knowledge of it. Han gets angry hearing that and whack Lee's head telling Amy that he is a playboy and tricking her to have fun. Amy naively asks what playboy means and Han explains that it's a boy who loves being around girls, play with their feelings and take advantage of their innocence and tries to get close, touch, and kiss them after taking them under confidence.
"But he is not like that. He never tried any tricks on me. He is you friend and you should trust him. How can you lambast him like that. So mean.." Amy takes the stand for Lee and Han felt helpless to fire out his jealousy.