by my side | jaywon

07

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"be gentle with me,
for my heart hides
so many wounds
that never bleeds"
- alexandra vasiliu -
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part seven:

It was a fine Friday morning. Everything seemed just as normal as normal can get but it wasn't until he walked into his kitchen to see Jay behind the counter with his mother, his sister sitting on the countertop beside them. What in the world is Jay doing here in my house like this?

"Good morning Won!" Jangmi greeted, throwing him banana milk. "Good—Good morning Jungwon~" Jay sent him one of those smiles. One of THOSE smiles that Jungwon hated to admit that he loved. "Good morning. Anyways what are you—" Before Jungwon could even continue, his mother was already explaining everything.

"He was here a little early and when I asked him, he hadn't eaten breakfast. So I decided to welcome him in, I mean I would feel bad to just leave him out there. It's a little chilly this morning as well. Oh and I know that you guys must be very good friends, he never forgets to come this way to pick you up." She was smiling the whole time, taking some time to transfer some scrambled eggs onto four different plates.

"And I'm pleased to find, he can cook very well!" His mother exclaimed, putting a hand on the black-haired male's shoulder. How did Jungwon not notice that his blazer was off hanging on one of the chairs with an apron on? A few specks of dust of what seemed to be flour on his cheek.

Jangmi jumped down from the counter and towards the living room once she grabbed a plate. "I'm going to see what's on the TV right now" She called behind her, their mother following behind with her own plate. "Heh Jay hyung you have something on your cheek" Jungwon walked over with a small giggle, reaching upward to dust off the flour with his thumb.

The view up close presented even more splotches of flour on Jay's face and even some in his hair. "Hyung, how did you manage to get it in your hair!" He laughed, showing off his adorable dimples. This made Jay want to pinch his cheeks so badly. He even made a mental note, he needed to do that one day. The younger reached up again to run his little fingers through Jay's soft hair, wiping away any trace of the white flour that he could find.

Jay grabbed onto the hand Jungwon used to wipe off all of the flour and wrapped both of his hands around the younger's one hand. "Hyung," Jungwon said softly, looking up at him. His eyes were adorably big and always looked like puppy eyes, at least to Jay. Should I allow myself to love him? Jungwon thought.

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I'm going to do it. Jay thought to himself, he cleared his throat and fixed his uniform. While he was looking at himself through the mirror, he leaned forward and at his hair. Using his fingers to smooth down whatever hair went rogue and using his free hand to fiddle with his tie.

"Confess? Should I confess?" Jay asked out loud. It was morning and it came to his attention: I never even confess my feelings towards him yet. He couldn't sleep the night before with this thought in mind, how could he be so dense? To Jay, this would get him the answers he wanted and hopefully satisfy the questions he would ponder at all times of the day. I won't, at least not yet.

"Hurry up!" Sunghoon yelled from downstairs. Jay frowned and turned towards his door. "Just wait, I'm almost done!" He yelled back. What irritated him though, Jake, Sunghoon, and Ni-ki showing up at his house unannounced.

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Jay hyung is being a little weird. Jungwon couldn't help but notice how quiet the older was this morning. Not only did three other people join them on their walk to school this morning, Jay only had exchanged a "good morning" with him before going completely quiet.