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Nova
It's raining in New York.
It's a wondrous sight, really.
I used to dream of being able to stand in the rain in New York, and now, I'm doing just that.
I knew it was going to rain today, and I purposefully didn't bring my umbrella.
To be honest, I don't know where it is, and I had to leave my place quickly.
It's probably in the back of my shoe closet.
Everything I can't find is always in that damn closet. I should clean it out one day.
I have a few errands to run. It's been two days since the incident at the art exhibition. I still feel like shit about it.
Late at night- if I can't sleep, I'll think about it, and I'll feel mixed emotions.
I don't like that I hurt Theo. I feel guilty. I don't like what I said to him, and If I ever talk to him again, I want to apologize.
However, I like the weight it took off my shoulders. I don't have to worry about seeing him again, and if I do, we'll go our separate ways.
We'll truly be strangers.
If I see him on the street, I'll breeze past him, pretending to not recognize the emerald eyes I have engraved in my memory.
I'll pretend I don't recognize the onyx hair that's gotten longer over the years we didn't share.
"This is how it's meant to be," I think on those nights I can't sleep.
This is what works best.
Yet, it feels so wrong and I can't understand why. In the short time, we saw each other- I think I grew used to him again.
I think that's inevitable when you see an old friend. It felt so easy to talk to him like I used to. Almost as if we hadn't lost any time.
Even though we've grown and changed, we didn't change enough not to know how to understand each other.
If we were to be friends again, it wouldn't be hard to get close- If there weren't any complications.
I've been distracting myself a lot. I've read a few books, listened to a lot of music, and left my house often.
When I leave my house- I just walk around, get coffee, window shop, or I just sit on a bench and stare at the sky.
Leaving my house takes me away from the silence- making it hard for me to think.
That's always the goal: Not thinking about the shit that's going wrong.
The sky has been cloudy a lot, and it finally rained today.
The rain is a comforting thing. I always feel better when it rains.
Currently, I am walking to the grocery store because I have no food at home. I like grocery shopping.
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Roman d'amourTwo broken people. Two people who have never been loved, therefore, not knowing how to love. Theo and Nova. They first met when they were both young. She was blinded by the need to fit in. He was blinded by the undisturbed attention she gave him...
