Just you and me

Goodbye

After Leo and I got back to my house from our walk, Leo still wasn't talking. He hadn't said a word to me since we were on that block with all the crack heads. Was he just unsettled by all of it?

We were sitting on my mattress on the floor ,just sitting there in silence, when my mom came in.
"Hey, sweetie." She smiled and leaned against the door.
"Hey." I smiled. I looked at Leo and he stared at his hands, no expression. What the fuck was going on in his head?

"I've got some good news." She smiled wider.
"I'm listening."
"I've talked to Mr. Allbrite and he and I agreed that instead of having you sleep on the floor, we're going to turn Daniels old room into your room." Daniel was Alyse's older brother who was now in college. He left a year ago.
"Awe, thank you." I smiled.

After she'd left the room, I looked at Leo. He still wasn't looking at me. I lifted his head with my finger under his chin.
"What's wrong?" I said softly.
"Nothing." He threw on a fake smile.
"Don't lie to me, Leo."
"I said nothing, y/n. I mean it. Nothing is wrong. Get off my ass." He raised his voice a bit. Which startled me and caused me to pull away from him. He was never like this. He was never violent.

"What the hell is wrong with you?" I stood up.
"I'm going home. You're ridiculous." He stood up going for the door.
"I'm ridiculous for wanting to know what the hell is wrong with my boyfriend? Okay." I laughed in anger.
Leo rolled his eyes before walking out, slamming my door, and leaving the house.

I collapsed onto Alyse's bed and put my hands over my face as tears slowly trickled down the sides of my face.

November 3rd 2020
For the next 3 days, Leo had been avoiding me. I'd seen him in school with a few different guys. Talking and laughing like everything in his life was fine. Like he was doing just fine without me. What the hell did I do wrong? Moments before Leo and I left my house on the 31st, everything was perfect. Just like it had been for a long while before that.

I even tried calling him a few times each day. But, I never got an answer. Today, I was walking near the basket ball court where Leo and I had first shared smiles.

I saw Leo playing basket ball with a few other guys. I didn't want to approach him. I was scared. But I figured if I really wanted to talk to him, now would be a good time. I'd just pull him aside, we'd talk it out, and everything would be okay. I was wrong.

"Leo." I called to the group of boys practically tackling each other from across the court.
A boy with dark hair looked at me and than looked back at the ball like I wasn't even there.
"Leo." I yelled louder. I'd now gotten his attention. He looked at me. No smile. Not a single emotion. He stared before he turned to his friends who were now just staring at him. He tossed the ball at the dark haired boy and said something I couldn't hear.

He approached me and I wanted to cry and just let it all out but I wouldn't let him witness that. Not if he was just going to continue to treat me like a ghost.

"What's up?" He acted like nothing happened. He acted like I was a complete stranger.
"I wanna know what the hell is going on? Why have you been ignoring me? What happened the last time we hung out?" I chocked up while I talked fast, "what did I do wrong?" Tears formed in my eyes and I tried to blink them away.

He was now looking at me with some sort of emotion in his eyes. I couldn't tell if it was sadness or anger. They looked the same at the moment.
"You didn't do anything." He sighed. "I'm just," he paused as if to figure out what to say next, "going through stuff."
"And that gives you the right to take it out on me?" Tears now running down my cheeks even though I'd tried to hold them back.
"Look, I'm sorry. I have to get back to my game now." He started walking away and I grabbed his wrist.
"So that's it? That's just goodbye? What are we even doing anymore?" He couldn't just blow me off and treat me like garbage and than expect me to assume anything. I needed some answers.

"Yeah. That's goodbye." He looked away as he said goodbye. And suddenly my heart felt entirely weak. The only thing I was holding onto was now lost. It was gone. And I wasn't even sure why.

I left go of his arm and started walking away fast. I knew there were water works headed my way so I walked fast. I didn't look back. And I didn't care to.

A/n: This hurt me to write. Genuinely.