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Starve

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by TheNoviceNovalist

by TheNoviceNovalist

I eat nothing
When I wake
Hoping it works

I eat nothing
Through the day
About to keel

Starving for an
Ideal self image
And it worked

20 pounds down
Need 20 more
Need 100 more

I feel better
By doing something
That is worse

Because I can't
Be me because,
Because, I can't!

I don't want
To be alone
Maybe this will,

Maybe this will
Be my panacea
Be my lifeline

Looking at food
Makes me sick
To my stomach

Because I've gone
Without for way
Way, to long

I can't see
The colors of
This, this, fork

All I see
Is the fat
Of my hands