talking to the moon || tsukiyama

chap. 1

- The moon? - Yamaguchi asked, looking at Tsukishima.
- Yeah... I think it's pretty cool... - Tsukishima replied, looking up to the sky, to the shiny, beautiful moon that night.
- Is it because your name means moon?? - Yamaguchi asked sweetly, looking at his friend with an extremely excited face.
- Just shut up and look at it.
- Sorry, Tsukki!

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Yamaguchi's Point of View

I still remember that day just like it was yesterday. Both me and Tsukki, standing by my room's window in a summer night during a sleepover, watching the moon like we always did whenever we had the chance.
Back to that days I was a little stupid, I couldn't find a way to defend myself from others until the day I met Tsukki. I can't help it, i was a child.

Today was a school day. Me and Tsukki always go together to school in the morning and come back home from training also together. So i rang on his doorbell and waited for him to come to the door.

- Good morning Tsukki!
- ...
No response? Ok this is new?
- Hello? You good??
- Yes. - he replied with a really strange voice. He sounded very sick or something like that. He has been talking like that for almost two weeks, he told me he went to the doctor and he said he was fine but I know he didn't tell me the truth. It's difficult to understand Tsukki's actual feelings.
I guess we'll just continue walking to school.
I took a glance at tsukki, he looked like he just saw a ghost. Almost as white as freaking paper, and he still tells me he's "fine".
Today went by quickly, everything, even the training. Tsukki is getting weaker and weaker, day after day. It'd be surprising if he wasn't sick at all.
I decided i should talk to him while we were going home to see if I can take anything from his mouth.

- Are you sure the doctor told you you were fine? - i asked him, lets see if i don't get him mad.
- Don't I look fine? -he asked me. bro you look like sh!t but anw.
- You look sick, Tsukki. You look really pale and even more skinny. Not to even begin with the fact that you sound like an really old man.
- Would you care if I was sick?

...what? Is he fr??

- Of course I would! Why wouldn't I?
- Because I don't want you to.

Yeah he's definitely sick.

- If you're sick, just rest at home Tsukki, it's better for you to do that.
- Why would you care about me?
- You're my best friend Tsukki! Of course I care about you! What's with all this?
- What's even the point of worrying about me? I can do things myself you know, i don't need people worrying about me so i can "change" myself, alright?

wtf is he talking about...?
Tsukki suddenly started coughing loudly.
- When are you going to the doctor again? Be honest with me so I can go home relieved.
- In 3 days.
- Okay, let's go home now, I'll help you carry your things.
- Whatever...

Author's Point of View

Tsukishima and Yamaguchi went home together. Yamaguchi was really worried about Tsukki, especially because he likes him, in THAT way. Obvious, isn't it? He always liked him. Sometimes he thinks it's stupid. His sister knows and thinks it's bullshit. He doesn't listen to her anyway but he still is really insecure about it.
He doesn't think it's wrong to date a guy, he's family does but again, he doesn't care.
He finally arrived his home and went to his room so he could relax. Good thing they didn't had homework.
He washed up and got dressed with his pajamas and sat on a chair next to the window. He always has two chairs in there. One for him and one for Tsukki.
- Why won't you tell me what's wrong with you? - Yamaguchi asked, talking to the shining moon. He always talked to the moon in the night, because he feels like he's talking to Tsukki.
- Don't you trust me enough? Have you finally, after all these years, got tired of me? - He couldn't help it but cry asking this. Yamaguchi is a sensitive person, specially when it comes to people that he likes.
- Sometimes I wonder why do I even think I'd had a chance with you. I don't even know if you like men.
Suddenly someone walked on the door. It was yamaguchi's sister.
- Are you crying because of that asshole again?
- Just shut up and get the hell out of my room.
- okay okay gay boy no need to get mad! - she said and giggled, getting out of his room.
Sometimes he wishes his sister was never born, but that's another story.
Yamaguchi though to himself as he got up from his chair and laid on his bed. "It's always my fault..."
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Hello!! I'm bee! I'm a new writer on this app and i hope you like this fic! Also my apologies for all the errors, my first language is not English. I'll be trying to post 2/3 chapters every week and if i don't, I'll publish a chapter about it! Also, the chapters are going to be small considering the fact that I'll be posting more frequently.
And yes I suffered a lot while writing this, so i hope y'all cry too.
bye bye!!