shut up tomathy - tommyinnit x y/n

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monday, april 12th

y/n's pov

yeah, todays probably the worst day of my life.

i got up and got ready, which i didnt want to, but i had to.

found black clothes and put them on, then sat on the couch with bitchhaver123 and waited for schlatt. once he was ready i drove to my dads house, the car ride was silent, but not awkward.

wilbur, tommy, and tubbo were waiting in the front, im guessing waiting for me.

i said hi to the three of them and knocked on the door, adam opened it and let us in.

my stepmom hugged me and said hi to everyone else, then my dad told we what we were doing, since clearly, i didnt know. he told me we were waiting on a few other people so i just went and sat down next to wilbur and schlatt.

wilbur said "so how are you feeling?"

"my head hurts"

we waited around, i fiddled with my fingers, couldn't concentrate on anything.

a lot of people walked in at the same time, i didnt know any of them, and i wanted to keep it like that.

we all got in our cars and drove to the chruch, then walked in and sat down

(i just wanted to say im sorry if you don't believe in like god and whatever!! i dont know what other people do when someone passes away so im just writing what my family does!! sorry again)

chruch felt like 7 hours, i didnt even listen half of the time.

the next part was the actual burial, the worst part. i would skip it if i could

we all stood there, watching his casket go down.

the casket wasnt open, even though i was told it would be.

im glad it wasnt though, i probably would've threw up.

it honestly felt like the world was spinning, i couldnt stand straight so adam was kinda holding me so i wouldnt fall.

i was crying, looked like an absolute dumbass but it didnt matter, once they covered the casket they let people leave flowers and stand closer.

we all went back to my dads house, all the kids and teens in one room, then the adults in the living room.

wilbur and schlatt were adults but they stayed with the teens and stuff since they didnt want to be around people they didnt know.

we were all in adams room, but while we were walking up to it i kinda looked at jasons room for a bit too long, schlatt nudged me and told me to keep walking.

their wasnt enough room for all of us to sit so i sat on the ground, starring at the walls, not talking to anyone.

i was so tired, my head was hurting, i just wanted to go home.

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it was around 9pm and i left my dads house, schlatt offered to drive so i let him.

(hi! i didnt want to go into too much detail because i didnt want all of you crying, even though u might be lol anyways make sure u have food, water, and rest!! love uu<3)