[onhold] Through All Seasons

25│Spring: 'I'm gonna love ya until you hate me.'

He still held my hand when we reached the end of the stairs. I felt intense electricity running from the skin he touched through my entire body. I felt light-headed, but I was not drunk.

When we were finally outside, I took a deep breath. What was I doing?

I knew it was wrong, but it didn't feel wrong. Nothing felt wrong with him. I knew I could trust him.

We ran through the streets as streetlights flickered by. I didn't know where we were going or what his plans were, but I didn't care. I felt like I could fly simply by having his hand in mine. It felt so right it frightened me. Did he feel the connection as well? Or was I going insane?

He stopped at a playground. He led me to the swings, and we sat down. At last, he let go of my hand.

"This is crazy," he breathed.

I didn't respond.

"River, I don't know what you are doing, but you're doing something. I feel different when I'm around you."

"In a good way?" I asked, not wanting him to stop talking.

"Maybe. I'm not sure. It scares me because I can't get enough of it. It's like you're a drug." He started swinging slightly.

My heart was racing so fast that he must hear it. I wished he would touch me again.

"I want to be around you all the time; and when I'm not with you, I search for you. In the corridors, in the streets, in the stores. Wherever I am. Even though I know you won't be there, I still check." I lifted my head and turned it towards him. He stopped swinging, now he looked at his shoes.

"It made me angry, when I saw you with this loser Tyler, because I knew he was wrong for you. I didn't want him to touch you, I didn't want him to be near you."

He looked up and our eyes met. "I don't even know why I am telling you all of this. You're in a relationship with him and you're rather an honest and sincere person. I must make you uncomfortable right now."

I should feel uncomfortable, but all I felt was happiness. A lightness around my heart I haven't felt in a long time. Like Collin lifted a stone of my heart and I knew my time has come.

Finally, I spoke: "What did I forget?" His eyes widened a little, but he had expected the question. I knew he would help me get my memory back tonight.

"Can I show you?" He asked, biting his lower lip.

"Yes," I answered hastily. He got up from the swing and held his hand out for me. I took it and he pulled me off my swing. Now we were standing, looking each other deep in the eyes.

He will kiss me.

But he didn't, he just smirked and walked of the playground. I didn't dare to say a word, didn't want to ruin the special connection between us.

When I thought he would take me back to the party, I recognized the neighborhood. A few moments later, we reached my house.

I was very confused. What were we doing here?

Then he opened the garage, which was for some reason unlocked. Coincidence?

"Here." His voice was dark. He remembered something. Emotions crossed his face. I saw pain, affection, and... was it guilt?

"Here?" I asked gently.

He looked me in the eyes, not sure what to do next.

"Forgive me," he whispered, and before I could wonder what in the hell I should forgive I felt his warm and soft lips on mine. At first, curious and shaky and then, as he realized I hadn't pulled back or slapped him, his kiss became more demanding and passionate.