Bnha Villain Oneshots/Headcanons

You left me | Chisaki Kai x Reader

Part 2 of "Missed Messages"

TW: Suggested Su!c!de

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The moon. The memories...who are you? I don't know who you are. There was another person on a bed in front of me. He looked...similar to me. "Hello?"
He didn't speak, nor did it look like he saw me. He looked in pain. I don't know why I'm here. I don't know who that person on the bed is, or why the moon is a clock that is timed for 12 hours. What happens when that ends?
I made it to a train. The person from the bed is standing there, looking sorrowful. Purple flowers came from the windows in the train.
"Shall we go to the lane?" It is quiet as we make it there. We arrive and... he's weeping at a grave.
I...remember now. You had left me, you had died awhile ago. I love you, you know that? I won't blame you. I understand why you did. I have so many regrets. I think about joining you everyday, I think about it when I wake and when I sleep. I think about giving up.
...What would you think? Should I...give up?
...No...I won't. I get back on the train. Without you, I can barely live. I can barely remember, I deny that you're gone. You loved the train, you loved the way we talked. I decided to go anywhere after. Anything to get you out of my head. Every place I went, I remember you, I remember how much you love each place. I left a little bit of my soul everytime. Without you, I feel lost.
The color of the flowers are red. They changed. There's also a rope in a form of a circle. He stands there, face towards the loop. What do I do? I want to forget, I want to forget, I want to forget.
Was there really all there is to this life of mine?
The loneliness is suffocating.
Is this it? He...No, I bring my head into the looped rope and...

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I wake up. I'm back where I am. It looks the same. I can't go to the lane again, so I decide to go to the clinic. The doctor asks me why I'm in.
"How do I leave this place?"
"What do you mean?"
I shake my head, then say,"My mask, it's breaking." She shakes her head. It feels like it. It feels like I'm breaking, yet I subside from the topic.
"I want to forget." I say as I look down. "I want to be happy, I was to suppress the bad memories." The doctor prescribed me happy pills. I took them and...

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It reset again. I have to stay strong. I have to survive for you. It's so hard. When you left me, I wasn't able to survive. Yet now, I live on with the memories you gave me. I live on for you, I live on to keep the lessons and memories you gave me. All we shared, all we did together, I live to remember you, I live to remember us.

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I wake up in a dark room. It smells of cleaning products. The voice in my head whispers. If I can survive a day, I can survive another. Though, have I...become free of my nightmare? I look over to my side and see them gone.

That's right...Y/N really did leave my side a long time ago.