Finding My Soul Mate [A Louis Tomlinson Fan Fic]

It's For The Best

I woke up with a nasty headache, god, I think about him too much. I really have to stop thinking about him, considering what happened last night... As much as I don't want to think about it, I just HAVE to think about it... What does this mean? Do I like him? No... I can't like him... We're just friends... I think. Being around him all the time is just gonna make me think about him even MORE, which will eventually cause my brain to explode. But, I've come to a decision. For our friendship, I have to forget about him. If I want this friendship to go on (which I do) I have to avoid him, so that prevents me from liking him even more. And if I like him, then it'll mess up everything... I just can't explain it, but it will mess everything up...

And I can't afford to lose the only one true friend I've made, just because of one silly feeling. I know this is gonna sound cliché, but my brain says no, but my heart says yes. I'm serious. I can't like him, I keep telling myself that, but I know deep down inside... I know I like him. I just don't want to accept that I like him. Besides, I just want to keep this friendship going, in fear of him not liking me back. WOAH. TF? I just GOT FREAKING LOGICAL WITH MYSELF... God, I REALLY HAVE to stop arguing with myself......

Okay, it's set. I'm going to have to distance myself from him... I think this might just work... I'll just stay home today, even though I really really really want to hang out with Louis. But, that's not an option anymore. Wait, what about today? If yesterday was Christmas Eve, then today must be Christmas. Great. JUST GREAT, cue sarcastic voice. 

We were going to go to Louis house today... I guess I can make up an excuse.. Saying I'm not feeling well.. Well, technically, I am not feeling well, cause I've actually got an headache. Okay, now that's cleared, I can just stay home all day long.. And try to think about avoiding Louis... I quickly got up and told mum that I wasn't feeling well, that I've got a big headache, so now she's letting me stay home... YES. Okay, I'm now back in my room, trying to figure out ways of how I can avoid Louis.

Okay, I like him right? Yep, I think so. The solution is simple, Carly. All you need to do is find someone else to crush on. Then, BAM! Goodbye, Louis, and hello new guy. But, I have to remember that I'm only doing this for the sake of our friendship. 

I desperatly racked my brain of guys that I might potentially like, then it hit me. I remembered that one of my Honeybees, Rachel, told me that school jock, Alex Westwood sorta likes me. And, I've gotta admit, he's pretty cute, and we sorta flirt, but ya know... I guess I can have a chance at liking Alex, right?

I grabbed my phone and quickly texted Rachel.

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To: Rachel

Can you give Alex Westwood my number? like now, text him that I needa talk to him ;)

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From: Rachel

ooohhh... is someone interested in him???

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To: Rachel

actually, yes... he's kinda cute

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From: Rachel

finally! you guys would be amzing together. and alex said he's gonna text you! good luck!!! ;)