Into the light..|Eremin

Chapter 14 |Pain

TW: mentions of suicide and abuse.

Armin POV:

I woke up remembering what I was gonna do yesterday I felt an immediate anxiety form in my stomach. I got up and looked around the room. The door was shut and the curtains closed. I could hear muffled voices? I was all confused til I just brushed it off as Eren talking to a friend or something. Sat up as I pushed the blankets away and set my feet on the floor. I stood up as I got a chill down my back. I peered at the time on the small alarm set on Erens nightstand. I slapped my mouth as I shrieked realizing that my parents probably were home today. I shook the thoughts from my head as I heard footsteps. Eren walked in as he set his phone down and looked down "Armin.. can we talk?" The room was silent for a while after he asked to talk.. I kept glancing at the time and finally broke the silence "Eren I have to go my parents will punish me if I don't get home!" I said in fear. Eren looked at me as he glanced out the window for a second "Armin your not going back their you can't and I'm so glad I got to your house in time to stop you.." Erens tone changed he sounded very depressed. If I was being honest I felt brutally guilty and I understood my choice of suicide wasn't the right answer but still I just couldn't take it anymore I absolutely couldn't I was at my breaking point. It's been 16 horrible years of abuse I couldn't stand it but if I was late I'd get beat so I had to ignore Eren. I truly loved him truly I love him so so much. He was the reason I didn't wanna die, but sadly I had to ignore his requests of me staying at his home. I shook my head answering no "Eren I'm sorry I truly am but, I need to get home. I'll tell you this.. I'll be fine" okay I felt bad for lying but it didn't matter. He understood my option I swear I thought I saw tears form in his emerald eyes. His eyes were dreamy... so nice to look at. I began to walk over to the door as I felt Eren grab my wrist. He smiled lightly but I could tell that was a fake smile he was scared and concerned I could definitely tell. "I'll walk you.." Eren said as he intertwined our fingers as we held hands, he began blushing deeply. I blushed deeply, we walked down stairs toward the front door, I slipped my shoes on and he walked me toward my house. I looked to see my parents car. Fear was spelt out inside my eyes. I hugged Eren tightly he didn't want to pull away but I had to. I pulled myself away as I kissed him on the cheek and walked to my front door as I waved to him. Eren waved back he looked sad. I walked inside and sighed of the pain I had to go through. Father came over toward me as he through the coffee mug at my head making the glass shatter. Some got stuff on my face as I slipped to the floor clutching my hand on my head as he yelled "Stupid bitch! Why the hell didn't you make my god damn coffee.. you don't have anything else to do you filthy whore!"
I could hardly speak as I felt myself in pain. Tears formed in my eyes as they came down my cheek. My mother laughed and said "This little slut thinks he can try and get is thrown in jail!!!" She laughed a bit after as she took her disgusting cigarette to her mouth and sucked the air and blew it out. It was disgusting. My father laughed along with her as he then said "I think little sluts and bitchy little boys should be taught a lesson!" My mother laughed more and nodded in agreement. My father began to kick at me as he held my shirt by the collar, he then brought me up and forced me to stand as I clutched my head still in pain. He through me toward the wall and then walked over to make coffee as he grabbed another mug out. The steaming coffee was finished as he brought it close to me. I was lying on the floor I felt a burning warm feeling as I screamed a little. My mother walked over to cover my mouth and slapped me hard on my face to get me to shut up. My father poured the hot steaming coffee onto my skin. It hurt like hell. I thought I'd die there but that's not all he did he wasn't finished. I felt my wrist after a while they were all blistered up. He only burned my wrist? That's a weird place to burn someone. It hurt really bad though. It stung if I put hot or cold water on it or even put pressure or touched it. Even if I just did nothing I could feel it burning at all times. I was able to get up and walk to my room in tears. I couldn't call Eren my phone was at his house. I missed him a lot, I wanted Eren to be with me. I wanted to hold Eren tightly. I began to sit in my bed and clutched my pillow to my chest holding it tightly as I cried my head pounded. I felt myself drift off to sleep as I felt a hard hand hit my face. I got up to see my mother yelling "Wake up fucker and get ready for school" she walked out while mumbling "I don't have time for this shit" I stood up and walked over to my dresser to grab some clothes and a hoodie to hide the burns I just got yesterday. Lovely. Eren always holds my hand how should I hide it he even grabs me by my wrist a lot..I got dressed and through the hoodie on and slipped my shoes on. I walked downstairs and started the coffee maker while I poured some in a mug for my father. I walked out to the front door opening it. I walked myself to school as I entered the principal came to talk to me about missing assignments.

Eren POV:

"What if Armins not okay!! What if he doesn't show up! What if he killed himself"
Jean looked down and patted me on the shoulder "calm down, we don't know anything." Jean walked off into his class as I paced around Armins locker. I was concerned and worried. As I paced I felt hands around my waist hugging me. I turned around as I hugged the blue eyed blonde close and I said "I missed you." Armin laughed and said "it's been hardly a day." Armin rolled his eyes and smiled. I grabbed his arm and said "Wanna go to th-" I stopped myself as I felt a weird texture over his wrist.. Armin pulled away and nervously changed the subject "We could go... um to the- uh the new.. cafe that opened up just a f-" I sighed and reached for his arm and lifted his sleeve up as I looked at his wrist.. "Oh Armin! Who did this to you.. did you do this to yourself!" Armin refused to make eye contact and he looked down as he answered with a mumble "I didn't do it.." Armin then said "Maybe we could think of something to do this weekend!" He said really fast while changing the subject. I held him closer to me and said "It was your parents wasn't it?"