Into the light..|Eremin

Chapter 24 |Never Ending Sadness

Armin POV:

I woke up hearing my mother banging on the door yet again. And again. And again. She swung the door open and grabbed me out of the bed pulling me up by my hair. She dragged me by my wrist and pulled me to the bathroom shoving my head into the cold ice water so my face wouldn't be puffy from being punched by my father repeatedly. She pulled my head out and I painted and gasped for air. She laughed at me and pushed by head in again. It got some of my hair wet. My bangs stuck to my head. I protested by nudging my elbow onto her. She yelled "Damn you!" I couldn't understand much it was muffled. She pulled my head out of the water and slapped me across the face leaving me on the floor. My face stung even worse since it was wet. I held onto it and sighed. I grabbed a towel and dried off my hair and face. I walked over to my bedroom and grabbed some clothes to change into. I took a look at my phone after I was all changed. I had a few unread messages from Eren and missed calls. I sighed as I texted him.

Armin: Good morning, Eren.

Eren: God I was so worried about you! Sorry I hadn't answered sooner. Morning babe.

Armin: See you at school! <3

Eren: You okay, did something happen.

Armin: Nope! Everything is good.

Eren: Love you, see you at school.

Armin: Love you too.

I put my phone down and put it in the charger. I walked downstairs and went to make some tea for my parents. My mother was drinking and had another man over.. um well I didn't wanna see what would happen next. She said "Hey this is my son Armin.. say hi." She said it all flirty and weird. She was always like this around other men. They started getting close to me and one guy said "May I?" She giggled and said "Have at him." He pulled me close to him as I kicked him away. He was a disgusting creep! How could she do this. She's my mother how how how how how how!!!! How how how! Mothers love their kids right! Fathers love their children? Am I wrong.. Tears slipped down my cheeks I could hold them back anymore. The man grabbed my waist and whispered "I don't take no for an answer." He smirked at me. And then it clicked.. he was the one who bought me. He was the one who touched me and beat me and raped me. My mother is sitting here allowing it. He said "Can I buy him from you." She rolled her eyes "I don't know how much he'd be worth but if he's worth something then no. But you can pay to rent him." I felt disgusted with my mother. I protested and said "GET OFF ME." He pushed me down onto the floor and straddled me with his weight so I couldn't get up. He held my wrists above my head. As he touched me anywhere he could I screamed and kicked more and more. I felt so numb. So disgusted. So worthless. The voices inside my head repeated the world "Worthless" as I was being sexually assaulted by this man. He thrusted into me harder and harder. Each second he was in me was more painful than the last. My mom was blacked out drunk so she also didn't care. Now I knew they really didn't care about me. As he pulled out of me I got up and tears fell down my face. He said "Good.. don't fight back next time or run away or I'll really hurt you." He sat down next to my mom as she woke up and they talked. I was a few hours late for school. I ran out the door in tears and disgust of what he did against my will to my body. It was mine mine mine mine mine mine mine mine mine mine!!! Mine mine mine. And mine only! I'm not his or anyone else's. I ran down the hallways of the school and cried even more as I entered Mrs Rals class. Everyone stared at me as I cried and sat at my seat. I was so embarrassed but the tears flooded my eyes and wouldn't leave. Eren said "Mrs Ral.. can I go talk to Armin in private." She shook her head and said "No you may not, get your projects done this is presenting day out your finishing touches on the posters and finish the essays." She explained. I kept on crying. I couldn't stop. Now I'd be sexually assaulted in my own house. The thought of it made me sick as I felt that I was going to throw up. I got up from the chair and ignored Mrs Ral trying to get me to not leave the class. I ran to the bathroom. That urge to throw up left me but I forced it. I walked over to a stall as tears dropped down my face onto the floor. I stuck one of my fingers down my throat gagging myself to throw up. I felt so disgusted so throw up. Do it. Throw up. The voices swarmed my head as I threw up more and more. I kept on forcing myself to throw up. I hated myself. The way I looked. The people who fucked me. And the people who messed me up. I had to keep on throwing up till nothing came out. But it kept on coming out and out. I wiped my mouth and flushed it all down. I turned around to see Eren standing their in shock and he said "W-why did you you just." His sentence trailed off as I ignored that he saw me. I washed my hands. Which will be now dirty forever. I began crying again. My knees buckled to the floor and I stayed in a sitting position. Eren hugged me and said "Armin what happened" his tone was stern. He wanted an answer now. "I can't say.. I can't say it.." he then looked down and forced me to turn around and face him. He held me tight and he said "Armin what happened!" He said sternly. I sobbed and began talking "T-that man.. the one a-across the street.. of your house.. he-" i couldn't say the word. I couldn't say it. I won't say it. Eren knew what it was and he said "I won't let him touch you ever again!" Eren held me even closer and tightened his grip. "We're going to my house after school." I said "b-but I can't-" before I could finish Erens hand covered my mouth "No you can now your parents can fuck off." Eren said angered. He picked me up bridal style as I said "Eren this is embarrassing you will not take me to class like this" he laughed lightly and said "Yeah I will" I protested "No Eren please don't- please tell me your not gonna make me go to class holding me like this" I groaned. Eren smiled "Yes I am." "No" "yes" we fought about it until he entered the class holding me bridal style. I buried my face in his chest out of embarrassment. Mrs Ral stared at us and said "We don't pick up our classmates.." she motioned for him to put me down. But he didn't quite do it yet and said "Well Mrs fucker I'd like to say that he's more than a classmate he's my boyfriend, and I'd love if you'd just fuck off!" He yelled irritated not realizing that slipped out of his mouth. I giggled a bit as he set me down at my desk. The whole class was silent. Mrs Ral grabbed our arms and took us to the principal. "L-let go of me." I said. She didn't listen but it wasn't because I didn't wanna go to the office she was hurting my wounds and blisters. I slapped her hand and pulled with all I could but I failed. Eren was chasing after us as she walked quickly. She said "Stop fighting me your going to the office young man!" Tears came down my cheeks as I yelled "Get your hands off me!" But she continued to force me into the office. Eren was dragged along as well but she let go of his arm and motioned for him to follow. Eren sighed as we entered the office and Mrs Ral walked back to the class. Levi stared at us and said "What the hell maggots?" I sighed as Eren explained why we were there. "I don't care, detention on Friday. Now out" we walked back to the classroom giggling. I acted like everything at home never happened. Little did I know, it's gonna be ongoing...