𝐁𝐔𝐂𝐊𝐘 𝐁𝐀𝐑𝐍𝐄𝐒 𝐈𝐌𝐀𝐆𝐈𝐍𝐄𝐒

good 4 u

Inspired by miss queen Olivia Rodrigo because this song has been stuck in my head since it came out

"Well, good for you,
you look happy and healthy"

"I seriously hate him Y/N... so damn much." Your lips curved into a small smile at Wanda's words. "Yeah well, join the club." The two of you were having a movie night in your room, and of course the inevitable topic of Bucky came up.

A few weeks ago, Bucky and you broke up. Well he broke up with you, and for no good reason. You were extremely blind sided, you begged him to give you a reason but he just didn't. The only kind of excuse he gave is that 'he couldn't love you anymore'. It broke you, and it took you a few days before you opened up about it to your friends, specifically Nat and Wanda.

Nat said she would break his kneecaps when you told her, and it was the first time you laughed since that night. The most annoying part of the whole thing, was that he seemed completely and totally fine. He acted like nothing ever happened, as if he never even loved you all this time.

"Not me,
if you ever cared to ask"

You wanted to show him that you could be okay too, but it was proving to be harder than you thought. Anytime you had to be with the group or in a meeting with the team you had to sit as far away from his as possible. You thought you might burst into tears if you looked at him too much. Especially since he acted like you weren't even in the room.

"Good for you, you're doing great out there without me
baby, God I wish that I could do that"

You were nowhere near wanting to be with someone else, you needed to heal first and you thought the same would go for him. That was until yesterday when you saw him flirting it up with the assistant who works on the lab floor. You were headed to ask Tony a few questions about a new project when you saw them.

He was leaning against the wall and she was standing too entirely close to him. Laughing at every word that came out of his mouth, it was embarrassing really. You stopped in your tracks and dropped your folder to the floor. This caused the two of them to look over at you, his face never showing an ounce of sorrow.

You tore your eyes away, picked up your folder, and walked right past the pair, bumping the girl on the shoulder on your way. You could hear her mutter some words under her breath but you could care less, she knew you two were together. Even if you were broken up she swooped in a little too fast for your liking.

"You gonna be okay Y/N? I'm getting pretty tired I might head to bed." Wanda pulled you out of your thoughts. She gently placed her hand on your shoulder, tilted her head at you in concern. "I'll be alright Wanda, thank you you're the best." You pulled her into you for a hug, which was extremely comforting.

After she left you stayed up for hours mindlessly watching movies. You were tired but sleeping was a bit harder these days. You had grown so used sleeping in the comfort of him. You decided that a cup of tea might help.

Your feet padded across the hardwood floors, flipping on the kitchen light switch, you felt your heart nearly jump out of your chest. Bucky was standing in the kitchen but you hadn't noticed until the lights were on.

He looked at you with nearly no emotion and you did your best to do the same. "Hey." You quietly spoke, feeling like your voice would be too loud in the silent room. He nodded at you, giving you a quick tight lipped smile. "Um, goodnight." You watched every step as he rounded the counter and walked right past you towards his room.

"I've lost my mind, I've spent the night
cryin' on the floor in my bathroom"

You felt the lump in your throat as your vision grew blurrier and the tears bubbled up. You flipped off the light switch and walked back to your bedroom, wiping your tears away with the sleeve of your sweatshirt.