Crazy Bastard || Binchan ✔️

15 - The End

One Month Later

Changbin was sweeping when he heard the side door open and close. He emptied the dustpan into the kitchen trash, putting the utilities back in their place. Before he could turn around, he felt arms snake around his torso. The warmth of Chan's chest made him smile.

"Binnie..." Chan's voice wavered, having worry ignite in Changbin's stomach.

"What's wrong?" The younger tries to turn around, successfully breaking through his lover's grasp.

Chan shoved his face into his shoulder before Changbin could get a good look. He wrapped his arms around him, wanting to hold onto something.

"Depression."

"What?"

"The diagnosis."

"Oh... oh, Channie," Changbin holds him tighter, rubbing his back and kissing the side of his head. "I'm so sorry, lovely."

The eldest just laughs softly. "Thank you. It's honestly more relieving than you think. All these years, something was wrong with me, and I finally know what. It's not the best feeling in the world, obviously, but I'm happy to have finally figured it out instead of drowning in confusion and... every negative emotion ever. I'm happy you helped me get the help I needed. Thank you, a lot."

Changbin pulls back, frowning at his lover. "Chan, why didn't you tell me? Or anyone, for that matter. Why didn't you go yourself?"

"I didn't realize it was something this bad. I... I honestly thought it was normal to feel this way. A lot of people tell me they get randomly depressed, so it seemed okay... until it wasn't. When you said it wasn't okay, I just got even more scared. I didn't know what to do. Thank you for helping me or else I would've been lost for life. I didn't know how much longer I could take feeling that way."

Those words hit Changbin hard. Chan had been close to breaking off the edge. He didn't realize. He never realized. He felt like a bad boyfriend for not noticing anything off before. Sure, they were only dating for seven months and were roommates before then, but how do you not notice something so serious?

"Thank you for being brave, Chan. You are so strong. Do you realize that? Going years with something like this and holding on.  You're so fucking strong."

"Thank you. I love you so fucking much. Thank you for sticking with me and helping me. Thank you so much for letting me continue to love you and not leaving me. I love you."

"I love you, too. I'd be broken without you, Chan."

"I can't live without you, Changbin."

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•The End•

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