Till the End of the Line(Book One)

Chapter Nine

      "Okay we have to promise not to tell anyone about this. At all. " Steve told me as we still sat on the bed. He scrubbed a hand down his face. Hydra was one of my worst enemies and his too...but this was a little different. I had actually did jobs for Hydra but they had practically ruined his life.

     "Okay. I won't. I wouldn't have anyways." I said. After a couple of seconds of watching him I finally asked, "Steve are you okay..." he nodded.

   "Yeah I'm just suprised they're back. I had always thought they were...gone." he said sighing and looking at me. I looked into his eyes which we such a gorgeous color of blue. They were eyes you could get lost into. But there was some sadness in them.

    After a moment I grabbed his hand, which suprised him.

   "It'll be okay. I promise. Yeah we now have one other person to look after but...I can assure you everything will...get better. We can take em down..." I said and for once in my life, I was very unsure.

    I felt him intertwine his fingers with mine and my breath caught in my throat. He looked down at our fingers. "Um..." and a small nervous smile appeared on his face and he got red. I let out a nervous chuckle and I blushed too. Okay....now KISS!! I attempted to cut out that voice in my head but it was no use. You can never get rid of me! Mwahaha!!

   I looked down then back up at him to see him looking right up at me. Then I lost track of what was happening. We started to lean towards each other and our lips barely just touched. I shook my head and backed up.

    "I'm sorry." I told him. "This...isn't...I mean it's not you. I just..." I cut off and shook head. "Sorry." I mumbled again.

    "No that's fine. I agree. I think it was just...The moment or something that...caused it. But no its okay..." he said.

    "Well I'm just gonna go...work out or something..." I said. I began to walk away and our hands unhooked slowly as I walked away. Well that was awkward. You can say that again. Well that was awkward. I rolled my eyes as I walked out of his room.

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   In the training room u was just punching the punching bag. I wasn't angry or anything just...unsure of my feelings. I don't have any. That's that.
Oh but I know you do. Whatever.

   Maybe I did...I shook my head and punched harder listening to one of my favorite songs using my headphones.

I don't want to be anything other than what I've been trying to be lately

All I have to do is think of me and I have peace of mind

I'm tired of looking 'round rooms
Wondering what I've got to do

Or who I'm supposed to be
I don't want to be anything other than me

   I have many favorite songs but this was up in the top five...I just...I felt a connection to it and I don't know why. I just simply loved the song.

    "I feel bad for that punching bag." I heard someone say and I turned around.

   "Your lucky it's not you Johnny." I said punching again. I heard him chuckle. Since I knew he just wasn't going to leave I pulled my headphones off and set it down on the nearby table. Then turning around I came face to face with him. Too bad we were right up against the wall so that meant I had nowhere to run.

   "Johnny what are you doing?" I asked him. Oh great now you've got TWO guys on your list. Though Johnnys not that hard to get. You could do him easily. You just got to kiss him...C'mon he's so so close....

My eyes widened at that thought. Do you ever shutup? I didn't think it did.

   He chuckled. "Why are you acting so nervous Nat?" He asked whispered in my ear and I swore I could smell just a bit of alcohol in his breath. He had been out there's no doubt about that. And.it was about 10 something. I didn't even realize how late it had gotten. "Johnny..." I warned, my back hit the wall and he came up putting his arms on both of my sides preventing me from leaving.          "Joh-Johnny..." I studdered. Now now...Don't go cheating on Steve. What!? We weren't even together. I could be with whoever I WANT. That's it girl. You go get you some. Cus we all know your a virgin. I cursed at that voice in my head. Like who were they to talk? Oh nevermind... He brought his face closer. Couldn't he just mess with some girl he found at the party? No darling he wants you. Your his prey, and he's the predator. They call it the predator-prey relationship. Oh my gosh. This voice better not tempt me...wait a minute...Crap. Was it trying to convince me? What was going on!!?? Your torn between two similar looking and very sexy guys. Many girls would live to be in your place. Now, just kiss Johnny. I begging you. Just do it trust me. I shook my head and closed and opened my eyes to find myself looking at his lips. Oh GOD! What was freaking happening to me!?

    "Well...Natalie..." Johnny said seductively. Oh no. Oh no. Oh no. Oh no. Oh- my thoughts were interrupted when he finally did kiss me. I didn't know what to do exactly. But when he parted my lips with his, I brought my knee up and kneed him in what was intended to be the gut but was another not so pretty part. "I...I um...Whoops." I said backing away trying not to laugh as he doubled over.

   "Ahh...why the fu...Ahh man...why did you do that?" He said. "Was it the way I was kissing you or something? I hope you know that's just how people kiss." He said standing up strait.

   "Sorry hot shot but...I wasn't exactly prepared to do any of that." I said walking out and to my room. Once I got there I busted out laughing. I then got a quick shower so I could finally go to bed.

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   I woke up a few hours later to a small bang. I jumped up and hopped out of my bed. I didn't think to put shorts on, (I wasn't wearing shorts but yes, I happened to be wearing boy short underwear. Don't judge) so I just pulled the xl shirt I was wearing down so that it went down to about my mid thigh.

   When I walked into the hallway which was very dark, I ran into a hard chest. I began to pat it and it was clearly shirtless and if I didn't know better, I would have thought it was a perfectly sculpted statue. "Nat it's me" Steve said and I still kept my hands where they were. He was about to speak again when I heard a sound behind me. I jumped and pressed myself against him looking back. He put his arms around me and looked into the dark.  Neither of us even thought about our positions. He continued to hold me and pulled me back into my room. "What was that?" I asked and he locked the door.

    "I don't know. But whatever it is, I think it's gone now. Are you okay being alone?" He asked me.

    "Um yeah..." and he began to open the door but I slammed it back and locked it real fast. "No. Please stay. Don't...don't go." I told him grabbing his hands. He smiled at me. "Okay. I won't. I'll stay." I sighed a breath of relief and walked back over to me bed and laying down. He just walked over all awkwardly. I began to get sleepy. "Um. You can...you can come...*yawn* lie here with me..." I said and I didn't think he would.

    But right before I fell asleep, I felt the bed shifting and I smiled as I fell asleep.