Complicated||Han Jisung

|Chapter 6|

- First Dancing Session: Tuesday -

The whole day was calm. All I did was practice and eat lunch with Stray Kids and Elle. Now it's currently 7:50pm and I'm meeting Han for our first dancing session alone. Sadly, I don't have a choice but to talk to him. Since Elle decided to threaten all my anime posters and shit if I didn't talk to Han. Knowing Elle, she would ask Han if we talked or not, so I wouldn't be able to get away from this.

I got to the practice room 10 minutes before our actual meet up time because I wanted to do a little warm up. I gave thought about what Han and I should do today since it is our first session. While I was stretching, Han walked into the practice room. I guess he had the same idea as me. "Oh, hey (Y/N). You came early too?" I wanted to say 'well no shit sherlock' but I knew Elle would have my head for saying that. I turned around to see Han still standing at the door. Smiling, I said, "Hey. Yea, I wanted to warm up before we start. You wanna come join me?" Han had a surprised expression on, since he wasn't expecting me to be nice and talk to him, but it made him smile. Han walked over to me and sat next to me then we started warming up.

After about 10 minutes, we talked about what we should do today. "So, what do you want to do today?" Han questioned. "Well, I was thinking maybe we could split the choreo into sections and slowly go over each one. That way we can adjust the choreo a little if we want to make it more comfortable for both of us." Nodding to the idea, Han smiled at me and said, "That's a great idea. Let's do it!" I just nodded with a blank expression, and we started to go over every move very slowly.

Almost three hours later until Han and I were satisfied with every move in the choreo. We decided to call it a night and started grabbing our things. We walked out of the practice room together and made our way to the car waiting for Han. Once we got in, I was about to put my headphones in but stopped when Han started talking to me. "So umm, how long have you been dancing?" Turning my head from the window to look at him, I smiled because I started thinking about my family. "Since I was 4. It's been my favourite thing to do for most of my life." "Wow! That's a long time. What kind of dance did you do?" I turned my head back to the window but still answered Han's question.

Since my anime stuff was on the line, I couldn't risk Elle fucking it up. "My mom wanted to be a dancer but couldn't, so she put me into it. I did Bollywood dancing because of my culture but as I started growing up, I wanted to learn more. I ended up learning hip hop, jazz, modern, ballet and other ones." I stopped because I didn't think Han really cared to listen to more since I answered his question.

However, When I looked at him, he gave me a nod to continue and had this huge genuine smile on his face. I just kept my expression blank and turned my head back to the window. "I had such an interest in it, but I knew that I couldn't make a job out of it. So, I majored in Spa Management but because I performed for random places to make a little money. I got scouted and ended up double majoring in dance as well." After spilling part of my life to Han, I turned to look at him and he had a shocked expression on his face. I couldn't tell if he was surprised because I talked to him or because I really did that with my life.

Since he wasn't saying anything, I just turned my head back to the window. "You're amazing. Really." I whipped my head to look at Han and made eye contact with him. I wasn't expecting that and the way he said it was so soft and sweet, my heart almost did a backflip. Almost. I don't know why but Han saying that to me and making eye contact, made me feel a different way. That ended up being the last thing said until we separated at our dorms.

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After the first session with Han, everything was great. Han and I started getting along slowly and he wasn't that bad. I mean his high level of energy still annoyed the shit out of me, but I couldn't really do much about that. The only thing that wasn't going unnoticed was that Han was starting to get bossier as every practice passed. I didn't know what the fuck was going on, but I assumed he was just stressed since he was doing this and Stray Kids stuff. I decided to leave it and just do what I had to with him then move on. It wasn't my job to get into the members' business only to befriend them. I didn't need to get involved and I didn't plan on doing that.

Now here I am. It's our third week of practicing on a Tuesday night. Han and I had been practicing since 8pm and it's now 2am. Yep. 2 fucking am. I was at a high level of annoyance and really didn't want to deal with this but here I am. Sitting on the practice room floor, annoyed, angry, and tired with Han yelling about how this move and that move aren't right. He keeps saying that we need to redo them and keep practicing until he's 2000% happy with the choreo.

My level of anger and annoyance is starting to reach it's snapping point but I'm trying to keep myself calm and I was doing great until Han decided to say. "(Y/N). Get up. Why are you still sitting down? We need to work on the chor -" "Oh my fucking god Han, shut up!" I couldn't do this anymore. I was pissed, tired, and the way Han was speaking to me after I decided to be nice to his squirrel ass isn't pleasing.

At this point all I wanted to do was go into a nice, soft bed and sleep. "We've been practicing for hours and we're both exhausted and stressed. Let's just leave and if you want, we can add one more day this week just to make everything perfect." I was talking as calm as I could because I didn't want to snap at Han right now. "No!! We can't! We need this to be perfect. Once we're done perfecting it then we can leave." Han looked at me with a serious expression and I could tell he wasn't leaving until he was satisfied but I wasn't doing that.

Losing control, I snapped... "NO! NOT FUCKING HAPPENING! I'M TO FUCKING TIRED AND SO ARE YOU, BUT YOU'RE TOO STUPID TO REALIZE IT. SO YOU CAN PRACTICE ALL YOU WANT BUT I'M GOING BACK TO MY DORM TO SLEEP." I got up from the floor, grabbing my backpack as I got up. I made it to the door and was about to leave but stopped when Han said something in a guilty tone. "Wait, (Y/N). I'm sorry. Please?" Turning around to look at Han, he was gesturing at me to sit beside him. I sighed deeply to control myself and rolled my eyes. Walking over to him, I sat next to him and leaned on the mirror behind us.

"Look, I really am sorry. It's just that this is my first solo song and I want it to be perfect. It's really important to me." Looking at Han, I could tell he wasn't lying. I stayed silent since Han looked like he wanted to say more. "I wrote this song about Stay and how they all mean so much to me. It just makes a difference if everything is perfect for them because they're the reason I'm here. Plus, they're all going to be watching and I want them to see how hard I worked for them. I may not tell them I love them that much, but I want to show them because they're like my second family." Han wasn't looking at me, only the ground. I leaned my head on the mirror again and sighed.

Honestly, I get it. My family is the most important thing to me. I remember when I first started at BigHit, and I pushed myself so hard. My first performance was so important because it was going to be live, so my family could watch me perform and realize I didn't make the wrong decision. I practiced day and night, just wanting my family to be proud of me. It got so bad that Elle had to physically shake me out of my stupidity. She got so worried because I wasn't sleeping or eating properly. I didn't realize I was worrying her because I was so stuck in my own determination and right now Han is doing the same thing I did a year ago.

Rolling my eyes, I couldn't believe I was going to do this. I got up and held my hand out for Han to take. He looked at me with a confused expression and I could tell he wasn't going to get it anytime soon. "Get up. We can't make the choreo perfect if we keep sitting down, now can we?" I said in a monotone voice. Han smiled brightly at me and took my hand. "Okay, we're going to do the choreo three more times. If you want to do it anymore, I will leave you here." Laughing a little and nodding, Han just kept smiling at me after that.

We went over the choreography once without the music and then three times with it. By the time we left it was 5am. Han and I got to the dorms and said our good night's. Ending the night with small, tired smiles.