Complicated||Han Jisung

|Chapter 7|

- The Next Morning -

Last night's sleep was amazing. Since Han and I practiced until late, my whole body was so exhausted that I slept like a baby. However, sleep couldn't last longer since I had to go to practice with Stray Kids. Opening my eyes, it was so bright outside. Honestly, I didn't want to get out of bed, but I had no choice. Ripping the blanket off my body, I started getting up slowly.

Once I got off the bed and started walking a painful jolt ran through my right ankle. Looking down at it, there wasn't anything visibly wrong with it, but I wasn't surprised this happened. I've been dancing so much within the last couple weeks and I normally have ankle problems that come and go. I'm not worried because I'm sure the pain will disappear within 2 to 3 days. Ignoring it, I went on with my day and continued with my regular schedule during the week. Dancing with Stray Kids, the other back-up dancers, and Han.

By the end of the week, my ankle was still hurting which was kind of weird to me. I didn't tell anyone because I knew everyone was going to start worrying and I really didn't need that headache in my life right now. So, I went through the week pretending that nothing was wrong and continued to dance with everyone as I was supposed to. I wasn't going to stop doing what I like just because of some small pain in my ankle. That's just not me.

- The Weekend -

Now that the weekend is here, I can finally relax and not put weight on my ankle. Honestly if I wasn't so stubborn, I would not be able to walk properly on my ankle, let alone dance. I didn't really do much on Saturday, I just chilled and blasted music in my dorm.

While the music was playing, Stray Kids' song played, and I couldn't help but dance to the choreo that I learned for this song. It was fun to be alone in my dorm without having to talk to people. I know I should've stayed off my ankle but when music takes over my body, I can't help but let it control me. I continued to dance around my dorm to Stray Kids and BTS songs that I knew that choreo to since I had nothing else to do.

Sunday was the same, I chilled and just listened to music. Han's solo song ended up playing and I was so up to dancing to it, but it never happened. Since my ankle was so fucked up and dancing on Saturday didn't help it at all, my ankle couldn't take anymore. I didn't end up dancing that day, but just sat down and watched TV or YouTube. I kept thinking about how the Mnet Countdown performances are happening in two weeks. I'll be there performing with Stray Kids and Han, since he and I are performing his solo song for the first time there.

I hate thinking about it but the closer the performance gets, the more I think about how I didn't want this lead position in the first place. Sometimes I think about telling everyone about my ankle so that I get out of doing the performance with Han but then I think about how much we both worked together on it. It's just unfair to him if I end up leaving him with someone he's uncomfortable with. I'm an asshole but I'm not a coward.

Since I wasn't doing much on Sunday because of my ankle, I decided it was best to just sit around and ice my ankle. Now, I'm watching a random anime I decided to start when Elle walked into my dorm. Shit... I forgot to lock the door, again. Elle saw me sitting on the couch and then saw how I was elevating and icing my ankle. "What happened? What's with the ice pack?" I didn't look away from the TV, but I could see the worry on Elle's face. "It's just my normal ankle problems. Nothing serious, so don't stress." I replied in a monotone voice. Elle nodded her head and looked at the TV but broke the silence after a minute. "So, have you told Han?" Looking at Elle, I gave her a 'what the fuck' look.

Shaking my head as I replied to her, "No. Why would I tell Han?" Shrugging her shoulders, she stopped looking at me. "I don't know. I was just wondering." Elle responded in a soft voice. "Well, it's not a big deal. But you're not allowed to tell anyone. Especially Han and Chan. Got it?" Looking at Elle with a glare, she could tell how serious I was and nodded her head. Agreeing not to tell a single soul because she knew if she did, I would get so pissed at her and that's something that doesn't happen often.

Elle decided to stay at my dorm for the rest of the day since she had nothing else to do. She wouldn't say it, but I could she really stayed because she wanted to see how bad my ankle was when I would walk or move. Elle knew if she told me that, I would just tell her to stop or ignore her completely and act like my ankle was okay. That's mainly why she didn't say anything to me about it.

During the day, we watched K-dramas and talked about random things. We talked about Jinyoung-nim and how he would pay both of us visits at our dorms or in the practice room/dressing room. He always wanted to make sure we were okay and would always ask us if we needed anything. It was weird at first but after a while Elle and I got used to all Jinyoung-nim's visits and questions. Honestly though, Elle and I wouldn't complain because Jinyoung-nim has been nicer to us in the last month than Bang-PD has in the last year we worked with him. It was comforting, sometimes.

Also kind of new, I've been slowly getting closer with Stray Kids. Since I've been working with them more since stages are coming up. Chan also made it a permanent thing that Elle and I come to their dorm every Friday, Saturday, and Sunday night for dinner and that they all come to my dorm every Friday, Saturday, and Sunday morning for breakfast. So, I see them more often and don't really have a choice to ignore them since they are now in my 'house', or so to put it.

Since Elle was already close with all of them, nothing is really new, but one thing did change between her and Hyunjin. They've been getting a lot closer than before and honestly if they don't start dating, I'll be a little disappointed. Elle hasn't really said anything serious is going on between them, but I can see that something is happening, and she just doesn't want to admit it yet, which is fine.

Although I don't want to admit, Han isn't that bad and I mean I have been getting closer with him. In all honesty, Han kind of reminds me a little of Elle but there are some differences. As much as I said I don't like how opposite Han is from me and that's why I wouldn't be friends with him, it's not surprising that we started getting along. I mean opposites attract, so Han and I just end up balancing each other well. I don't dislike him but he still annoys me a lot and at times I really want to slap him but I don't, obviously.