Complicated||Han Jisung

|Chapter 18|

- 1 Week Later -

This week hasn't been easy. I've seen so much of my family members that I haven't seen in over a year. It wasn't easy to see them since it wasn't the happiest of situations, but it was nice to see them. There was so much to do that I barely had time to sit but there was so much planning and I had to talk to so many people since I was the fourth grandchild out of five. I hated talking to people and it didn't help that everyone I talked to just talked about my grandmother in every sentence.

During this whole week my phone had been blowing up with text messages and calls. All members of Stray Kids called me at least 5 to 10 times. Elle called me over 100 times and texted me over 200. Jisung however was the worst. He called me over 300 times within the week and texted me over 600 times, it made me wonder if he was just contacting me every chance he got. It was getting so much that I eventually texted Chan and Elle at the end of the week telling them what happened.

I really didn't want to tell them everything because I didn't want to talk about it. It's not an easy thing for me and I'm still trying to get myself back together. I have this constant feeling of emptiness. I lost my grandmother, my storyteller, my family and most importantly the people I truly love most in the world. Since I know Chan and Elle, I knew that they were going to ask about how I was feeling which I didn't want, so I just decided to cut the conversation short and say I had to go but they know the important part which is all that matters.

I did mention to them not to tell anyone. I didn't really want them telling anyone about why I left or that I left. I know if they told the rest of SKZ then I would be getting texts and calls way more than before, mainly from Jisung. I can imagine that he would start freaking out more than he is right now, that I just left for such a serious reason without telling anyone. He would freak out, get mad, get sad and I really don't want to deal with that.

Elle and Chan weren't too happy with the fact I didn't allow them to tell anyone, but they just had to deal with it since it was my business. They were lucky that I decided to text them anyway just to say what was up. I was originally thinking of not telling them anything and only actually talking to them again when I got back to Korea, however the worried texts and calls made me contact them.

There was one person that texted me that I had no choice but to answer. JYP asked me when I would be coming back and I told him that I still wasn't sure, but we decided that I would come back in 2 weeks. I couldn't stay longer since Elle and I's contract will be ending soon and I'm still a part of other projects with Stray Kids. I had to be back, and I've already taken a week off and 2 more weeks seems to be the limit of how long I'm supposed to take off. So, I guess I'll be facing Elle and Stray Kids in 2 weeks. I hope it doesn't get crazy.

- 1 Week Later -

~ Jisung's POV ~

It's been two full weeks since (Y/N) disappeared and I haven't been able to focus on anything. I mean I was finally about to ask (Y/N) what we were because after that kiss I was hoping something would happen between us. However, once (Y/N) got that call she disappeared, and I can't stop worrying about her.

I don't understand why I feel so worried, scared, and uneasy whenever something happens to her. I care so much about her yet all she's done is treat me horribly. I want to make her happy, but I don't know how, and I don't think she would let me. I really like her, but I can't see her feeling the same. I just wish I knew what she was thinking or feeling or even doing right now.