Defiance

Chapter 10- Pain and aches

Brynn POV

It was one of those voices you couldn't mistake for another. How could I forget the voice of the person who was the sole cause behind me pushing everyone away? My body stiffened as my mind wandered to thinking why he was here or how he knew where I was. In his presence I was weak and numb and didn't have the ability to help myself. With all the courage I could muster up I brought my head up and glared him right in the eye.

"Well Alex I hope you know I don't love you. Leave. Now." I demanded, thrown back by my own voice and sudden burst of confidence.

"Oh baby, you've gotten so confident." I cringed at the pet name "But I can see behind that mask that you're trembling inside."

Another shock of cold shot down my spine with the realization that what he said was true. There was no way I could hide from him. He reached his hand to my chin and cupped my cheek and tilted my head to the perfect angle for him to lean in and kiss me. But suddenly, something inside me snapped and I felt as if I started to radiate strength and confidence, and the general bad-assery I always radiating was even stronger. I gripped his strong arm with my hand and flung his hand off of me and stood up, and he did the same.

"Don't even think that for a second you can come back here and fix what you broke Alex. Sometimes it's better to leave things broken than risk breaking it more. I'm not sure if you recall- due to the obvious fact that since the last time I saw you you've drugged yourself almost to death- that you ruined my life for me. The fact that it 'almost' happened doesn't make  the situation any different by quite a long shot. You ruined me emotionally and mentally. I've never been the same and now I can only hope that maybe ONE DAY I CAN FIND SOMEONE WHO CARES AND MAYBE I WON'T PUSH THEM AWAY THINKING THAT THEY'LL DO THE SAME YOU DID! What you did was horrendous and no one EVER should have to go through that.  In fact, instead of dancing around the term let's just say it. RAPE. ALEX YOU TRIED TO FORCE ME TO HAVE SEX WITH YOU AND IT CHANGED ME! Maybe for better, maybe for worse. But I sure as hell know that it's given me the confidence I've needed ever since. I'm not some girl you can push around any more. I make my OWN decisions and do what I want. I don't want you in my life ever again so I suggest you leave before I either call the police or take care of you myself. Your choice."

By the time I was done half screaming and yelling I was breathing heavily and shaking, my body filled with a sudden adrenaline rush. He was just as shocked as I was by my outburst, which was evident by the stunned look plastered on his face.

"Princess listen-"

"No! I'm done listening to your excuses for being a douche. Just-" I was interrupted by the familiar feeling of his hand making harsh contact with my face, creating tears to well up in my eyes and he pushed me back down and he crouched in front of me.

"Don't you dare talk to me like that." He started. "I don't know where that outburst came from but it will never happen again. Understood? There will be consequences next time got it?" He barked. "You're still mine."

I felt anger raging through my body and couldn't control my anger. I stood up, suddenly towering over his crouching figure in my 3 inch heels. He stood up slowly and closed the height gap, him suddenly taller than I by about 3 inches or so. I glared into his eyes, trying to seem intimidating but to no prevail. A low chuckle came from his throat and I felt all my confidence slowly burn away.

"Leave. Now." I stuttered in a low voice that significantly lacked confidence. I sounded like a 10 year old telling her little brother to get out of her room.

"I tell you what to do. Go it?" He yelled.

I gulped what sounded a bit too loudly and shivered at the sting his words implied. I could feel the mark he left on my cheek start to redden and start tingling and I was worried he'd do it again. Or worse. I sighed as my entire body started trembling with raw fear and I nodded submissively and mostly out of fear.

"Let's go. I'm taking you home and I'll pick you up for dinner tonight. You better look good." He demanded as he took my arm in his tight grasp and pulled me towards his Dodge Intrepid. My mind was jumbled and my heart raced. The only thing I could think of was 'how do I get out of this'.