ALL OUT OF LOVE

Chapter 1

The Beggining

I never really believe in Love

Puwede pang love for friends
Love for parents
Love for kids

But love for one another. Romantically and someone that can make you think of spending your lifetime with

Is'nt too unrealistic? Dreaming your future with someone. it's too magical..well you can dream but you should also know that there's a thousand percent chance that the dream itself will betray you in the end.

I have seen so many attempts, and for what i've seen so far no matter how hard they try or that one try and fight for both of them, love? it always fade away itself over time. things will get messy, they will fell out of love eventually, they love each othe today then tomorrow they can't even stand each other's breath

This morning can be a blessing to someone and also can be a disaster to someone

Love..

When im still a kid I've always witnessed two people starting and trying. Love? It is always strong and full of excitement in the starting line ignoring all the negative possibilities, negative outcome, fear..ignoring all those things can stop them from risking it all

But in the middle that is where you start to feel something is off. You'll start having trouble coping with your differences, your patience for each other will shorten and shorten day by day and wouldn't remember that you used to understand each other before

One will question what happened to their relationship and the one might be confused as well. The one might cheat and the one might not forgive, the one might cheat multiple times and the one might forgive multiple times until she/he is empty, the one might fall out of love while the one might still hold on, the one might forget the reasons why did they start off as one while the one might be tired and just give up

There is a lot of possibilities a couple might end up than what i listed but most of the times it is

Or it can be they love each other so much and love between them dont fade away itself but the other one died in the end leaving the other one behind and their two kids. all alone and so suddenly.

and that's the story of my parents. this is also where my trust issues in destiny, in love thingy come from anyway

It's like destiny is telling me,

"There is no such thing, cut it off"

"See? take it as a lesson"

Love destroy everyone. It makes you always hope and care kahit na sa mga taong di naman deserving. You just keep on loving them even if it hurts you so much and took you so long to realize what is wrong, and sometimes. Or most of the times kahit pa na nakita na natin yung mali, kung ano yung mali kahit na deep inside we already know what we should do but we keep ignoring it because we love that person. We chose them over ourselves. We chose memories over ourselves. Pinagsamahan, pinag daanang pareho, mga binuong plano

and seeing how my Father suffer..it makes me sad. and angry. why did my Mom have to die?

"Alfredo please naman.. don't call me anymore! i dont wanna block you dahil sa pag kakaibigan na mayroon tayo but if you keep doing this i will!-"

at gaya ng inaasahan ko ay di sya papatalo. Alfredo is my M.U at the moment, he needed to stop. iniisip ko nang itigil ito, nung una una palang na nag simula kami, i just don't have any balls to tell him

and now. i am using this ridiculous situation as my reason, well. Valid enough

"I'm sorry but can we stop this? Lasing ako non, i am not thinking straight"