ALL OUT OF LOVE

Chapter 4

I'll bring you home

after the breakfast. after them having some chit chat ang lahat ay umalis na para gawin ang kailangan nilang gawin, puntahan ang dapat puntahan samantalang ako ay nilugmok ang sarili sa kuwarto, with Asteria. Daddy made some calls so he is in his own designed room, Tita and Tito went for work. Lucas go out with some of his friends, Caspian..probably still outside, hinatid nya si Heart pauwi

"gusto mo parin sya, Ate-"

"Hindi" agap ko. Medyo nag panic sa paratang nya, she is questioning my feelings. tinagilid ko ang ulo ko. im about to say something pero dahil kinukwestiyon nya ako ay di ko na naituloy

it is my feelings pero mukhang mas alam nya pa iyon kaysa sakin because i am not sure. I don't know. no or yes, maybe. It doesn't matter now

"See! Ate obvious naman na gusto mo padin sya-"

napasapo ako sa noo ko, Oh gosh. Ranting to her is really wrong!

"Okay, Asteria you might want to lower down your voice,"

she sighed. my younger sister sighed at lumapit sakin

"Ate you should end this hangga't maaga pa"

umawang ang labi ko, what? narinig ko ba ng tama? gusto nyang itigil ko? si Asteria? the most obedient daughter my Daddy could ever have?

muka syang may malaking problema. Namomroblema sa kung ano na diko mawari!

"Gusto mong itigil ko 'to? now that the announcement is done, all is done. Kasal nalang ang kulang?"

i second question. because i am already considering my sister's suggestion. Damn

tiningnan nya ako. sa tinging miserable "Oo, Gusto mo sya, gusto mo si kuya. this is so wrong-"

"who said i still like him? and. and.. Asteria, you want me to go against Daddy? gusto mo bang maging only child,"

she ridiculously laugh at sinuklay ang buhok nya. she bit her lip and express her worries to me. she is expressing it so well that i could ever imagine

wow now she's worried about me. Her' worrying about me also makes me worry about myself. She was never wrong. saming dalawa, she's the one that is always favor by Daddy but it's not a problem to me because clearly saming dalawa, sya ang may malinaw na tingin sa mga bagay bagay, sya ang may abilidad gawin ang kung anong tama palagi, sya ang may malinis na daang tatahakin,

While mine is always so foggy.

"you are marrying Kuya Lucas, his cousin..and not just cousin but also his, Friend. are you ok with that.."

tumikhim ako at inabala ang sarili sa pag tingin sa kuko ko, "Im good."

nag usap pa kami tungkol sa ibang bagay. hanggang kailangan na nila umalis ni Dad

muli kong niyakap si Asteria at dahan dahang huminga ng malalim. My heart is hurting watching them leave this Mansion, This province. pakiramdam ko ay isa akong tutang pinamigay.

"Mag ingat kayo. Asteria itext moko pag nasa bahay na kayo.."

"Okay Ate. i'll always Call. we should talk in phone more often now.."

tumango ako at pagod na ngumiti "siguraduhin mo, " lumingon ako kay Daddy. i wanted to hug him..but my body, wont move "Dad.." i love you please take care of yourself, "Your meds"

"Good bye, Razeenah." the only thing he has to say to me. That's it for having the best Father and Daughter relationship.

hilaw akong tumawa para aluin ang sarili sa kalungkutang unti unting nadarama lalo. "Lucas, My Fiancee. Hindi nya kayo makikitang umalis because he have to do something, there's apparently an emergency where he is needed"