I see this tropes on Tumblr a lot and I kinda love it. So I'm dedicating it to the one whose on my mind rn...
1. The first time I thought about kissing you was at the end of an math test which I did miserably on. I tried to do one exercise and couldn't think of anything. I looked up and there you were... smiling about your finished test. One shared look and you mouthed me a formula and I tried to copy and use it. Your encouraging smile. It was an genuine one, that always stuck with me. That was the moment I first thought about kissing you. More like a kiss on the cheek that time. But he'll yeah I wanted to kiss you for helping me. It gave me the idea that you might saw my problem and thought I needed a jumpstart. Maybe you were the one who believed in me without even knowing me. You gave me a piece of happiness and peace. A tip and a smile saved me back there in two ways.
2. The next time I wanted to kiss you was about an half year later. We again in class but during the pandemic, so our class was divided. But you were in my group, much to my liking. We did presentations on things we cared or interested in. I sadly can't remember what you talked about, because I looked into your eyes and tried not to blush. You won second. I won first. You congratulated me and said how interesting my theme was. You let me pick between the prizes and we shared with the class. You personally handed me my "prize" again with a smile. That's when I wanted to at least ask you out, but my insecureness did get the better of me.
3. Sadly we only see eachother during class, so when we had to pick up our grading papers I arrived early. I definitely just did it to see you in person again. After rereading my paper for the fifth time I looked up and I saw you. No joke my heart did skip a beat. We said our quick hellos and you went in the school building to get your own. So I waited for you. I waited for an opportunity to talk to you. And we did have some Smalltalk between classmates which isn't a lot but it sure made me happy. Before you went on with your day you gave me and my friend a quick and yet long hug. The way it felt is still engraved in my memory. I couldn't think straight I truly was intoxicated by you and your cologne. The really weird thing for me was how we don't really know each other and yet you felt like home. The feeling of security I've never felt before with someone else. I felt home in your presence. Also something which stayed in my mind. When you got in your bike, that was the third time I wanted to pull you into a short kiss.
4. We started playing volleyball with friends and to be fair I'm not very good at it. But you truly the angel you are always kept encouraging me. Every hit I landed in a good way you complimented my achievement and encouraged me to continue doing good. Even when others kinda picked on me for not putting my everything in the game, you still encouraged me. Somehow you always believe in me and show me one of your angelic smiles. You don't know how much these mean to me. And how much I appreciate you to still ask me to come to the games. That my angel is another of these times when I wanted to kiss you.
5. You amazed me. You truly did surprise me after all this time. After I gave you up for my own sake you came back into my life... My heart with a bang
You asked me to go to prom with you and it was so sweet how nervous you seemed. I still don't know how it came that you asked me. Me... Or of all the options all these girls you could've chosen but you chose me.
That is another moment when I wanted to kiss you. But after everything I still did decide to have it friendly and not get lost in hope.
6. It was after we took a walk and talked about our fears of the future and more. We sat down on a bench and talked more and I couldn't ignore how safe I felt best you. At the same time still nervous because it was our first time meeting up alone and we're friends now... kinda. During our conversation I looked at the night sky and saw a
shooting star. It lit up my heart with joy cause I haven't seen one in so many years. I told you and you said I should make a wish and I truly couldn't wish for anything cause I was so grateful of our time together. You walked me to my bike so that I could get home safely. That's something I will never forget. Because it was in the complete other direction where you were headed to get home yourself. When we bid our goodbyes you told me how great our time together was and how you enjoyed it. I only could reciprocate it and we hugged. God was it comforting. When we stopped and went out different ways it felt like a part of my soul went with you. So that goodbye was one of these moments but I'm glad we hugged instead. If hugs are all I can get it's okay. I wouldn't want to give them up.
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It was the our actually first kiss. We talked the first time in person again after about a month both being on different parts on the planet. When we first met again my heart skipped a beat. I tried to surpress my feelings for so long but now I just knew the universe heard my wishes and gave us a chance. Take it or leave it And even though I had my troubles I decided to take it. And we confessed and kissed. It wasn't magical but I will hold the memory close to my heart and cherish how wonderful and sweet you made me feel. And most importantly how safe.
