It is about half a year ago that we parted. And still mind goes to places I thought we would make memories of. You don't think about me in that way. So much you make clear with the looks your giving me. I see you blame me for what happened.
And your right. I wasn't ready. I wasn't completely honest about it from the beginning, but I didn't hide it either. I told my troubles and hoped for compassion and understanding and got ill- treatment.
But as I can see clear as ever. You and Me. We're both not ready. Not in the right place to go the direction we went even though you and me wanted it to work so badly.
We never reached the shore. We broke apart at first storm.
Something I'll always regret.
But I had to do what was right at the time. We were hurting. So I had to break your heart. And you resent me for that.
That I understand. But you don't understand and they will not understand. I gave you my a part of my heart. And it broke the minute the painful words passed my lips.
I never got my heart back completely. You still carry that broken piece with you without even knowing. And probably won't see it after how you seen me act the last weeks.
You once again assumed wrong because of an allusion.
I will never understand how you can't believe my loyalty to you. But now I'm free so to say and took some of my freedom and you punish me for it.
Whatever I do I can't do it right. You turned our friends against me, even though you promised you never let them. Still now you don't do anything against it.
And here I lie sleepless at night with an aching heart and mind. Restless hoping to find peace and love.
