It's not the end of the world.

The time i lied to my therapist and my best friend

(Present time(Therapist office))

"So you had been in contact with Jake during the summer?" Dr. O'Malley says interrupting me.

"No, not really."

"Not really?" He says questioning me. "Well, define in contact." I say while my biting my nail.

"Did you talk to Jake at all during that summer?" Dr. O'Malley asks me. "Yes, we did talk over that summer. Only once though." I say looking at Dr. O'Malley. "How come you left that out?"

"Oh did I leave that out? Huh, I didn't notice." I say sarcastically.

"Why did you withhold that information?" Dr.O'Malley says looking up from his notebook. "Well first off I didn't withhold it from you. Second, off I'm embarrassed." I say avoiding eye contact.

"Why were you embarrassed?" He asks. "That one interaction between us was a very horrible memory that I would not like to revisit." I say beginning to get flustered.

"So can we please just drop it it's not important," I say as my voice cracks a little? An awkward silence falls between the both of us until Dr. O'Malley shifted in his seat.

"Hadley you know that I'm not here to judge you, I'm just here to listen." Dr. O'Malley says kindly to me.

"All you need to know is I made a fool of myself." I say looking at Dr. O'Malley.

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"It was truly the worst first day." I say to Beau as I take the books out of my locker. "I actually kind of enjoyed it." He says leaning on the locker next to mine.

"Well, I'm glad one of us did." I say closing my locker and walking towards the stairs. Beau comes over and puts his arm around me.

"Candy told me about Mr. Smith's class." Beau says as we walk down the stairs. "What about Mr. Smith's class?" I say playing dumb.

"The fact that you had a weird bodily shut down because you were seated next to Jake."

  "Shhhh. You are so loud there are people around us." I say looking around us. "She said you guys were talking." Beau says looking down at me. I just nod my head.

"Well, what did you guys talk about?" He asks me stopping in his tracks.

"Nothing important," I say removing his arm from my shoulder and walking away from him.

"What do you mean nothing important." He yells from across the hall with a smirk on his face. I stop in my tracks and realize he yelled on purpose to embarrass me.

"If it was important I would have told you." I yell back at him with a smirk on my face. He just laughs at me. "Now are you coming to my house or what?" I yell at him.

"Gosh I'll come to your house, you  don't have to yell at me about it." He says walking past me and out the front doors. I walk out the front doors and see Beau standing with the rest of our friends.

"What are y'all talking about?" I say give my brother a side hug. He looks down at me and messes up my hair.

"We were talking about Rachel's party that is taking place in three days." Missy says to me as I swat my brother's hands away from my head.

"Ughh I forgot about that. I think maybe we should just skip it this year." I say as I fix my hair.

"Skip it! We can not skip it" Missy says very loudly. "This is like the biggest party of the year." Heather says agreeing with Missy.

"Her parties are always amazing. It's like a tradition this point to go." Marcus says to me.

"Yeah, we go every year." Beau says questioning why I don't want to go anymore.

To be honest the thought of going to a party right now feels horrible. I know that I'm supposed to be moving on but I'm still in the part of the process where I can't do anything. Everything just feels like a constant reminder that we are not together anymore.

"You're all right we do go every year, We should go." I say agreeing with them. As much as I don't want to go to this thing I don't want to drag my friends to my self-pity parade.

Plus maybe it won't be so bad I mean Rachel's parties are always huge, so I might not even see the two love birds.

"Ahh yay I'm so excited." Candy says. "I don't think I can stay over though missy." I say interrupting Candy. Marcus looks back at me and gives me a look.

"Why can't you stay?" Heather asked me.

I put my lips and a straight line and raise my eyebrows trying to point out the obvious. Everyone just looks at me as if they are not getting it.

"Hadley hello." Missy says waving her hand in my face waiting for an answer. "Please don't make me say it, you guys."  I say shifting uncomfortably. "Say what?"

"Oh, I get it this is about Jake." Heather says interrupting Missy. Beau looks down at me as if he is disappointed.  I just look back and shrug at Heather.

  "Okay, then he is uninvited." Heather says. Both the girls nod their heads in agreement. "No you guys it's fine."

"No Hadley it's not fine you deserve to come too and not be worried." Missy says.

"Please, you guys. I don't want to be that girl. He is your friend also that's not fair." I say crossing my arms.

"You all deserve to have a good time and if I stay at Missy's, I'll just be drama," I say shrugging awkwardly.

"That's not true Hadley." Beau says putting his hand on my shoulder.

"It is and this is my shit not any of yours. I don't want to make the same mistake again." They all just stand there and nod their heads in agreement. "So can we go home because I'm starving." I say to lighten the mood.