An Unacceptable Mate

Chapter Forty

    "Stop," I panted as his mouth took to my neck, fingers digging into his shoulders. "We can't do this...anymore...it's not fair." I let out a wild moan as his teeth sank into my throat. My muscles tightened, teeth clenching as his hands gripped my hips so tightly they would surely bruise. 

Inerra pulled his teeth out of me and pushed up onto his knees, fiery blue eyes so beautiful with his thick, heavy lashes. Had fate put me with the wrong brother? Most times I felt so loyal to Acera and I didn't question him saying that we were meant for each other but other times Inerra made me query everything.

My thoughts felt scattered, my vision unfocussed. 

Inerra started to push my top up with his fingers, running them over my stomach. His hot touch brought my back up in an arch. Acera might not be mine. What if we'd gotten it wrong? I didn't feel half of this with him. Inerra had snatched me up in one sweep. 

    "I love it when your eyes go wide. You're deep in thought," he stated breathlessly, fingertips stroking my skin. "What's on your mind this time?"

  "Everything," I admitted. I reached my right hand out to hook onto the top of his pyjama bottoms and tugged.

His eyes smouldered, tongue stroking across his lower lip. Hell that was sexy. "Are you thinking about me?"

  "Yes," I whispered, toes curling as he lowered himself down onto me. The tip of his tongue traced its way down my jaw to the skin behind my ear. I bit down on my lip. "What if we were all wrong?"

He paused and then lifted his head to look into my eyes questioningly. We were so close, his glistening lips had never looked so enticing.

This doesn't feel right, a voice said in the back of my head. It faded. 

  "About Acera and I. I've never felt...like this..." I stammered, unable to find the words. Embarrassment started to eat at me. "I only feel it with you. I only want you in this way. I don't understand it. I'm scared I'm making the wrong choices."

    "I will answer in my selfish honesty," he said quietly and then kissed me gently. "I think you've got it wrong. I hope you've got it wrong. I want you to be mine. My mission of checking if you were safe for my brother changed into an excuse to have you all to myself. I can't sit back while you kiss my brother. I want to fuck you so hard that you forget about him and the rogues. I want you to want me like I want you."

  "I do want you," I said quickly and then glanced down at his mouth hovering close to mine. "Sexually, I really want you. But I don't know if I can love you like I love Acera."

His eyes closed, teeth gritting slightly. "Do you love him? Really?" I was suddenly subjected to the full power of his penetrating eyes and felt the answer spill from my lips before I could doubt it.

  "No."

His hips ground against mine and I gasped. "Tell me you want me."

  "I..." My mouth ran dry, heart pounding in my chest. Was I really about to forget everything I'd gone through with and for Acera just so I could feel good with Inerra? Was I in love with Inerra? Or was it just physical attraction?

I felt safe with Acera, but I felt safer with Inerra. He had more of a name for himself, he was seen as a huge threat to enemies and Acera wasn't really. They were both beautiful creatures, but Inerra was sexier and he made me feel sexy too. Acera was kind and loving and Inerra was rough and sometimes mean and demanding.

Despite Inerra's flaws, I was very aware of the soft spot he had for me. He was possessive, protective, gentle and caring with me when I needed him to be. It just had to be Inerra. I was blinded by what I thought was right. Not once had I questioned that perhaps Acera was not truly meant for me.