-Faint Love || SeungJin-

28. Let Him Know

Seungmin's POV

Today is the annual gathering day. We were still in school because others were helping the teachers to decorate the stage in the playground. Hyunjin is expert in art and Jeongin as well. I was sitting on the bench. As usual no one allowed me to work. 'Just two days are left Seungmin' I thought and sighed.

I kept staring at Hyunjin from far away. He was blowing the balloons which will be put up on the stage. He was struggling to blow them. His face turned red and his cheeks looked chubby. I urged to poke his cheek but I can't do it. He gave up on blowing the balloon instead he's now tying them. I giggled watching him carefully tie them. He's afraid of balloons and still he's doing it.

He's looking a softie right now. He's stubborn, somewhat rude but I know he's behaviour with the people he loves. When he was dating Eunha, even after being half-hearted in the relation, he used to protect her. I also know whenever he'll love someone with his whole heart, he will keep that person happy and loved. His smile when he is with Felix and Soobin, makes me satisfied that he's smiling. I want him to be happy no matter what. I might be dead or alive after two days, but I want to see him smile at me before I die. I'm so happy right now that I have loved this person in my life. Even if he hates me, the reason behind my smile is him. I should tell him how I feel. He just know I love him but how much? I want him to know this.

After an hour, they all came up to me, wrapping everything. Hyunjin didn't glanced at me though.

"Guys listen up, now it's two o'clock so around five let's meet at the front gate?" Soobin asked and we all agreed to it. It was a half-day today.

"Ok, so let's go. Seungmin I'm walking you home today." Jeongin said. Yes I really want to spend these two days with him. Not two days but atleast one day. Tomorrow I'll be off to Germany.

We got up from the bench and before we part ways I called out. "H-hyunjin?" he turned around with everyone else.

"Yes?"

"C-an I talk with you for a moment?" I asked.

"Ofcourse Seungmin you can, guys let's go first." Felix said.

"I'll be waiting outside the gate. Take your time." Jeongin said as he realised what I was going to do. All of them left.

"What?" he asked hands crossed in front of his chest.

"I-I w-as s-say-"

"Don't shutter Seungmin." he said. His tone was soft.

"I want to te-"

"Hyunjin!!" I got cut off by the teacher. He was calling Hyunjin for help.

"I gotta go." he simply said and left.

'Will I be ever able to tell him?' I thought and walked towards the gate.

"What happened? Did he said-"

I cut Jeongin's words, "Teacher called him. Bad luck today as well."

"Ahh it's ok. You can tell him at the gathering okay?" I hummed to his question.

We both arrived at my house and he left to get ready for the event. I got inside the house and my room. I sat at the study table and opened my diary.

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4th July, 2020
Hello diary, its me Seungmin again. I know you want Hyunjin to write in you again but I can't force him to do so.
So about today, I saw Hyunjin struggling with balloons, he was kinda cute while blowing them. I was going to confess him, but the teacher interrupted. But, tonight I'm going to do it.