Choosing sides (ON HOLD)

Chapter 19

CLARKES POV
what the hell Clarke, why'd you have to go off and and sleep with him?, what the hell were you thinking, well I know what I was thinking, I was thinking that I loved him. I let him in and I shouldn't have, I displayed weakness. I've learnt a lot while leading the Grounders and one of those things is love sick puppies do not make good leaders. I need to pretend it never happened. I make my down the ladder to the bottom level of the dropship once I reach the bottom of the ladder I jump off with a thump startling murphy and octavia, announcing that I had entered the room. I walked over to my backpack in the corner and grabbed my map from the from pocket. Once I had obtained the map I walked over the the table in the centre of the room, not making eye contact with anyone, not talking to anyone.
"Have fun up there princess?" murphy said
"Shut up murphy" I snap at him
"No really, I mean who's next you've got a lot of admirers"
I turn around and look at him straight in the eyes
"Do you want matching bruises, cause I will gladly give you another punch"
"Ohh grounder princess your so scary, look I'm quaking in my boots. I just hope that Bellamy knows what he's getting himself into i mean you don't have the best reputation with men and we don't want him to end like Finn, dead on a pike" with that I snapped I run up to him pulled out my knife and held it at his throat.
"Say anything like that again and you'll be the one dead on a pike" I spit
" Oh come on princess you don't have the guts to kill me" he said in return that stupid little smirk never leaving his face.
"Oh trust me when I say this murphy, you don't know I'm capable of". I dug the knife in a little, pinching his skin, a small bubble of blood dribbling down his neck and his hisses in slight pain
"Oh little murphy, your so stupid, think about it, your a little idiot that thinks he's so much better than everyone else, no ones there for you, no one will back you up, no one loves you and sure as hell no one will miss when your gone, and then think about me. I may not have anyone who loves me, or who will miss me when I'm gone, so we're pretty much the same, both done things that we shouldn't have done, things that we regret, both been exiled from our group at one point or another and hey, I'm fine with that but the difference between you and me is that you went running back with your tail between your legs and I didn't, I'm the one with an entire army of blood thirsty warriors who will slit your throat with out the blink of an eye. So I suggest that you really don't want to get on the wrong side me, cause I can kill you in a hundred different ways with just the flick of a wrist" and with that I kicked him in the bits , spun around and returned to my map.
"Bitch" he coughs out and charges at me, about to take me out, I punch him square in the jaw, he falls and I go to kick him in the stomach when I feel arms wrapped around my waist.
I push the arms away
"Get off me Bellamy!" I shout at him and again walk over to my map, ignoring the shocked stares of octavia, the coughing murphy who is on the floor and the hurt look in Bellamy's eyes. No one talks to me, they just leave me be, looking at the map, trying to figure out what our game plan is.
"I'm going to get water" I announce
"It might no be safe out there Clarke" octavia says
"I think I'll be fine, anyway I think monkey boys gone and he only has one eye so he can't get me if he can't see me" I open the dropship door and descend into our old camp,I walk over to a bucket of water that Bellamy must of collected yesterday and fill up my bottle. Once I had my refreshing drink I return to the dropship.
"So, what's the plan queenie " Bellamy says to me.
"Well to get our people out, we need to send someone in"
"I'll go" he instantly puts forward
"No you won't, I will" I say calmly "I know my way around, I got out so I sure as hell can get in"
"But Clarke it will be dangerous. What if something happens to you inside, what if something happens with the grounders out here, your needed"
" I have a second who I trust, they can lead the grounders, I will get a signal to you somehow and as for me on the inside, you don't have to worry about that I got it handled" I say with a grin.